O yeah! Jay, i made it longer then you thought i would!
I Just had to do something to celebrate my one week of going to school. If you have ever seen the Halloween pictures of me last year, and saw my awesome pants i wore. I had thos on with a pink Camp Tonkawa shirt. If not, they are size 10 girl pants i bought at hot topic. Bright green and black plaid long pants that have spandex in them. And there the tightest pair of pants i have ever put on.
Everyone seemed to LOVE them! I got double the attention today!
This is was the last day for school for me until next week! I am going on a cruise Monday!!
In first period, Olivia told me that she had something to tell me. class went by as usual, but Mrs Rayome did not forget that i was going out of town. She gave me the homework for the next week, that i am not going to do.. Maybe, if i have nothing else to do. I got a 86 on my vocabulary, and i am proud of it!! :)
After class Olivia said "So, last night.. I had this kinda wild fantasy about random guys and stuff. And you were in it" What i like about her, is that she is confidant and fun!! And i knew it was safe to laugh about this with her. So i did! I dont mind if girls have crazy sex fantasy's about me! hahaha!!
On my way to Algebra, I had to go into the bathroom to let the lizard out to get a little fresh air before i stuffed it back in. The pants are just a tad but on the uncomfortable side. But in the end it was worth wearing them. Sooo many people commented on them in good ways.
I walked over towards my desk, and one of the girls next to me dropped a lot of cheeze its on the floor. She didn't want them so i sat there in the corner munching away while everyone was giving me strange looks. I dont know if it was the pants or the food. I have eaten dirtier stuff off the ground.
There was a test in Algebra today. It was easy. I might have gotten 1 or 2 wrong out of 35. I sat and talked to Jenna and Braedy the rest of the class, bell rang and they seemed to disappear extremely fast. I am always the last one to leave. Got my stuff together and said "have a nice day" to the teacher then left.
I had to make another pit stop in the bathroom again. Gave White Steve and Dainna a hug then rushed off to next class
It was another "Do nothing Friday!!"
So we sat in the hallways working on homework and talking. People still like my pants, and i am becoming more popular.. I'm not sure if i like that or not. I guess i'll just play it out and see what happens in the end. If the end ever comes.
We went outside and if we wanted to play soccer with the other class, that sits in the hallways with us, we could. I was one of the people who did.
I am very VERY glad that when people see me, they smile. Thats what keeps my world spinning.
One of the other Coaches looked at me, and said "Are you serious.." i knew he was talking about my clothes. "Yeah, i am serious. are you?" He laughed. then assigned teems and said that he wanted me as far away from him as possible.
The real Marcus Soccer teem was running and getting ready to play when we got to the main field. We had to sit in the bleachers for a minute. The soccer teem was running up and down everyone of the bleachers. a few kids sat where the girls ran. and got freakin yelled at by the soccer coach!! It was ridiculous... People and there patterns in life. when someone gets in the way or tries to interfere. They get SOO upset!! When someone has power over others. they dont even think about compensating.
I sent my first text message in school today!!!
Soccer was fun, i seemed to make even more friends out on the field.
I was extremely hungry and ate my apple in class, when i say i eat an apple, i mean the whole thing, even the core. I had no money for lunch. But everything works out in the end and i got a small bag of goldfish someone didn't want.
I am still making sure people know that i am not JUST sitting with them. I am always moving around the the lunch room. I was with my friend Cody that played soccer with me, and this girl sitting next to him says
"So, yeah. I met you yesterday and was wondering what impression did i have on you?"
"Do you want an honest one?"
"Yeah, i do"
"Are you sure?"
"Um, yeah"
"Ok, well your hair is so straight and perfect it makes it look like to try way to hard to keep it that way, You wear to much makeup and you have cool earrings." I said smiling
"Aaah.. what?!" In a very discussed voice. and she turns around and looks away from me
Hahahaha!! She wanted to hear the truth!! and i told her. i said it all in the nicest way possible. And if she took it as an insult, thats her problem not mine.
I am starting to catch onto peoples names. Its very rewarding to get it right on the first try!!!
By 4th period, I was wiped out. Stumbled into class, sat down. we had a sub today that seemed cool. When Karli sat down, i didn't even say hi. and she started talking about herself. I learned a lot about her.
She is a scatter brain that is very self centered and will only talk about herself. Her eyes never focusing on one thing for longer then 4 seconds. She doesn't get very much attention at home ether.
Just another day in class!
Once it was over, i had to rush outside to meet my dad. The night before, i had agreed to take Kaytee home. She needed a ride. I found her, said bye to everyone that i knew and didn't know. because i was not going to be there next week.
I wonder how much i will be missed. i guess we will see next Monday!! :)
In the car, my dad was just talking to her and she said that she might move. My dad, a Realtor asked why? and if they had some one to sell it yet. She was going to move back with her mom.
Dad says "Well, do you want to go?"
Kaytee "Yes, and no"
Dad "Then why would you go, when its something you dont want?!"
Kaytee "... because"
me "Dont listen to my dad, he doesn't give the best advice in the world. Just listen to your heart but make the decision with your head"
She like that.
Once i got home, i went over to my brothers house for dinner with my mom and him. I was there with my laptop and talked to Aliessandra online. I met up with her at the highland village shops. it was great to talk to her again. i missed her since i started school.
We came back to my house after desert and watched Kung Fu Panda! Awesome movie
Later, after she left. I talked to Morgen on the phone. She told me since she is in theater. She heard all of the freshman girls talking about how cute i was and how they love me and everything! It was awesome to hear. She also told me that she kinda had a crush on me the first few days. She still does, if she told me that. I really dont know much about school girls, but i will find out soon it looks like!!
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Thursday, January 29, 2009
My 6th day at school
Yesterday was another snow day, 2 in row! I felt like i was homeschooled again.
Yesterday my old best friend Zach called me at 11, I was still sleeping because thats what people do on snow days. I never knew!
So he called and i had no idea who it was but i kept the conversation going and going trying to guess from context clews. That didn't help. In the end he told me and I freaked! That whole day, i got to chill with him and reminisce about everything and learn about the new.
Something i have been experiencing, Is when you acknowledge that someone has left your life and you understand why. They will come back. This just happened with Zach and it also happened with McKenna about a month ago.
Today!
I woke up at 7:15 listening to Daft Punk. Hoped in the shower and was off to school by 8.
Chilled in the Hallways with Kaytee, Tori, Nicole and there friends that know my name. Half asleep, happy and sociable I was.
Stumbled into English, with just a bit of dread, but not enough to spoil my mood.
Sometimes i am called lucky, maybe i am, but most of the time, everything seems to workout. Although, I did feel like i was gona puke at one moment. I thought it would be awesome to puke in class! haha! just imagine the look on there faces!!!
But that passed
We got to go watch the theater class perform there new musical! For the whole fist period!! i was very excited. The Musical was called "All Shook Up" And it was entertaining to watch. My friend Morgan was in it. The teacher got kinda mad at me for laughing so hard. But hey! i cant help the giggles! and that theater was a big bus to Giggle town!
We didn't get to see the whole play because it was just a "preview" But i got to see it twice!!! Once in first period and again in forth period.
When we finally got back to English class, There was an announcement saying that you are to go to your 2ed period class from last semester and get your report cards before you go to your 2ed period class. I was confused. So i just went to my 2ed class. After all that report stuff. We jumped right into Algebra. I was fun, it really was. Jenna and the other people around me said that they heard me laughing during the Musical. Math went by very quick and i ended up with a lot of home work. It was still very icy out and there was ice everywhere, no one was playing in it but me. Eating, breaking and sliding on the ice was fun. almost didn't make it to my next class. I got a few of people to join me. it was quite fun.
I have learned that the longer you wait to pee, the better it feels. Its my routine to see White Steve between the band hall and the commons, inform that that i have to pee then go to the bathroom. I always ask everyone on the way, if they wanted to join me. I have had no takers yet! hahaha!
People are starting to want me to remember there names.. God dam, my one and only weakness! I cant remember a name to same my life!! So far everyone all the names i remember are Micky, DJ, Morgan, Danni, Kristin, Cassie, Kaytee, Nicole, Kole, Megen, Danee, Andrea, Jenna, Ian and maybe a few more if i ponder about it a little more. And I am Very proud that i remember all that. dam!
So, I have been telling people that every morning, I straighten my hair with an expensive hair straightener. And fed them this long story about how i am embarrassed about it because i got made fun of when i was younger.
I have this amazing wig, that is exactly as i described it. A Jew fow. One day! haha! one day i am going to wear it. and be like, "I did not have time to straighten today"
There gona freak.
So yeah.
Third period
I am glad i was prepared to dress out. As in bring gym clothes.
If you didn't bring gym clothes, then you get a zero for that day.
We played soccer that whole period. It was so much fun!
There was a few people who were into the game, I was one of them.
When the goalie punted the ball, eveyone would charge for the ball. I would run in there screaming like a maniac! RAWRrwAGAAA!!!! they all stop dead, i get the ball. score a goal. It was badass.
Our goalie had a leg of a saint! One little munchkin, he could kick that ball so god dam far!
The people who were just watching said they'd be quoiting me tomorrow about all the funny stuff i said. i had a great time getting all sweaty and flirting with the girls on the field.
Its my favorite class. Everyone seems to be my friend that class.
I spent my last dollar on watching the musical.
So no lunch money
I ate my apple, wandered around and never sat in place for longer then 5 minutes. I have 5 different tables i can go to sit at. And they all know my name. I am starting to become very known. People say "hey madisun!" in the hallways that i dont ever remember introducing myself too. Tomorrow i won lunch money, she really thought i was lying about being a freshman. Her name is Kristin.
I spent the most time at Jenna's table of girls, throwing pieces of orange at people i dont know.
Once in my last class, i got to say "hi" to everyone. Then we went to watch the Musical for the 2ed time. When people say that things are not as good the 2ed time you see it. There wrong. It was better :)
After school. I chilled with my newer friends in the front of the school. Making faces in the glass windows in the front.
I took out my Underwater shock proof camera and went up to people said "Hey, look at this picture!" and right before the take the camera from my hands. I Droop it and look like i am about to cry. Lol! If i ever break my camera i get a new one for free. The warranty covers EVERYTHING. I have gone through 5 of them so far. It was so much fun. I am going to get a new one tomorrow because i am going on a cruise Monday. Want to make sure i have a working one for Mexico!
Elliot and Caitie came to pick me up because my dad took me this morning.
I still haven't started my homework yet. dam.
Yesterday my old best friend Zach called me at 11, I was still sleeping because thats what people do on snow days. I never knew!
So he called and i had no idea who it was but i kept the conversation going and going trying to guess from context clews. That didn't help. In the end he told me and I freaked! That whole day, i got to chill with him and reminisce about everything and learn about the new.
Something i have been experiencing, Is when you acknowledge that someone has left your life and you understand why. They will come back. This just happened with Zach and it also happened with McKenna about a month ago.
Today!
I woke up at 7:15 listening to Daft Punk. Hoped in the shower and was off to school by 8.
Chilled in the Hallways with Kaytee, Tori, Nicole and there friends that know my name. Half asleep, happy and sociable I was.
Stumbled into English, with just a bit of dread, but not enough to spoil my mood.
Sometimes i am called lucky, maybe i am, but most of the time, everything seems to workout. Although, I did feel like i was gona puke at one moment. I thought it would be awesome to puke in class! haha! just imagine the look on there faces!!!
But that passed
We got to go watch the theater class perform there new musical! For the whole fist period!! i was very excited. The Musical was called "All Shook Up" And it was entertaining to watch. My friend Morgan was in it. The teacher got kinda mad at me for laughing so hard. But hey! i cant help the giggles! and that theater was a big bus to Giggle town!
We didn't get to see the whole play because it was just a "preview" But i got to see it twice!!! Once in first period and again in forth period.
When we finally got back to English class, There was an announcement saying that you are to go to your 2ed period class from last semester and get your report cards before you go to your 2ed period class. I was confused. So i just went to my 2ed class. After all that report stuff. We jumped right into Algebra. I was fun, it really was. Jenna and the other people around me said that they heard me laughing during the Musical. Math went by very quick and i ended up with a lot of home work. It was still very icy out and there was ice everywhere, no one was playing in it but me. Eating, breaking and sliding on the ice was fun. almost didn't make it to my next class. I got a few of people to join me. it was quite fun.
I have learned that the longer you wait to pee, the better it feels. Its my routine to see White Steve between the band hall and the commons, inform that that i have to pee then go to the bathroom. I always ask everyone on the way, if they wanted to join me. I have had no takers yet! hahaha!
People are starting to want me to remember there names.. God dam, my one and only weakness! I cant remember a name to same my life!! So far everyone all the names i remember are Micky, DJ, Morgan, Danni, Kristin, Cassie, Kaytee, Nicole, Kole, Megen, Danee, Andrea, Jenna, Ian and maybe a few more if i ponder about it a little more. And I am Very proud that i remember all that. dam!
So, I have been telling people that every morning, I straighten my hair with an expensive hair straightener. And fed them this long story about how i am embarrassed about it because i got made fun of when i was younger.
I have this amazing wig, that is exactly as i described it. A Jew fow. One day! haha! one day i am going to wear it. and be like, "I did not have time to straighten today"
There gona freak.
So yeah.
Third period
I am glad i was prepared to dress out. As in bring gym clothes.
If you didn't bring gym clothes, then you get a zero for that day.
We played soccer that whole period. It was so much fun!
There was a few people who were into the game, I was one of them.
When the goalie punted the ball, eveyone would charge for the ball. I would run in there screaming like a maniac! RAWRrwAGAAA!!!! they all stop dead, i get the ball. score a goal. It was badass.
Our goalie had a leg of a saint! One little munchkin, he could kick that ball so god dam far!
The people who were just watching said they'd be quoiting me tomorrow about all the funny stuff i said. i had a great time getting all sweaty and flirting with the girls on the field.
Its my favorite class. Everyone seems to be my friend that class.
I spent my last dollar on watching the musical.
So no lunch money
I ate my apple, wandered around and never sat in place for longer then 5 minutes. I have 5 different tables i can go to sit at. And they all know my name. I am starting to become very known. People say "hey madisun!" in the hallways that i dont ever remember introducing myself too. Tomorrow i won lunch money, she really thought i was lying about being a freshman. Her name is Kristin.
I spent the most time at Jenna's table of girls, throwing pieces of orange at people i dont know.
Once in my last class, i got to say "hi" to everyone. Then we went to watch the Musical for the 2ed time. When people say that things are not as good the 2ed time you see it. There wrong. It was better :)
After school. I chilled with my newer friends in the front of the school. Making faces in the glass windows in the front.
I took out my Underwater shock proof camera and went up to people said "Hey, look at this picture!" and right before the take the camera from my hands. I Droop it and look like i am about to cry. Lol! If i ever break my camera i get a new one for free. The warranty covers EVERYTHING. I have gone through 5 of them so far. It was so much fun. I am going to get a new one tomorrow because i am going on a cruise Monday. Want to make sure i have a working one for Mexico!
Elliot and Caitie came to pick me up because my dad took me this morning.
I still haven't started my homework yet. dam.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Snow day?
What?! a Snow day? Yeah.. thats what everyone called it. I was Disappointed, and i think i am the only person who was, i sure hope i wasn't the only one. Out of 3500+ kids
I woke up at 7:30 because i told Jay i would be at his house at 8. I got up, stumbled across my messy room, to shut off the extremely loud, extreme bass that you can literally feel through your whole body. Then i found my phone. I had 5 new text messages!!! I knew something was up, because this never happens. So i grab my phone, fall back onto my water bed read the first one "No SCHOOL TODAY!!!" closed my eyes and fell back asleep.
I dont really remember much, but Jay said he came over and started shaking my bed. He said i sounded like a walrus, cussing at the devil.
Then i woke up and was kind of sad that i didn't have school today. I was planning something too!! darn! And it looks like tomorrow is also going to be a snow day.
I learned that when school gets interrupted, then the schools add another day to the end. So its making everyones summer shorter... That really sucks for them!! Hahaha! School will end for the summer on June 5th, My birthday is on the 2ed! And i'll be 18 and free to chose to stay or go.
Once i made it out of the shower, i played a lot of piano. its nice to get back to my music. Jay came back over to chill with me. We made BLT's and they were amazing!! My mom taught me how to make the best BLT in the world. I was raised a veggie boy. Not much meat in our house.
Then it got really cold.. and started sleeting.
Jay, his brother Nate and I went outside to play in the ice. We had fun.
Then later in the evening Jenna called me. Hahaha!! I haven't heard someone laugh that hard for sooo long, in a long time!
Sometimes i really think that i am a magnet for people who need someone to listen, understand, and help them, help them self's.. or does everyone out there need someone like that? maybe both. Well, she is now my closest new school friend.
Well, its 1:30 am. and i just checked the weather. It says
"4am 25 Degrees Ice Pellets, 7am 23 Degrees Partly cloudy"
So, i dont think there is going to be school tomorrow ether.
But if there is i will be ready!!
I woke up at 7:30 because i told Jay i would be at his house at 8. I got up, stumbled across my messy room, to shut off the extremely loud, extreme bass that you can literally feel through your whole body. Then i found my phone. I had 5 new text messages!!! I knew something was up, because this never happens. So i grab my phone, fall back onto my water bed read the first one "No SCHOOL TODAY!!!" closed my eyes and fell back asleep.
I dont really remember much, but Jay said he came over and started shaking my bed. He said i sounded like a walrus, cussing at the devil.
Then i woke up and was kind of sad that i didn't have school today. I was planning something too!! darn! And it looks like tomorrow is also going to be a snow day.
I learned that when school gets interrupted, then the schools add another day to the end. So its making everyones summer shorter... That really sucks for them!! Hahaha! School will end for the summer on June 5th, My birthday is on the 2ed! And i'll be 18 and free to chose to stay or go.
Once i made it out of the shower, i played a lot of piano. its nice to get back to my music. Jay came back over to chill with me. We made BLT's and they were amazing!! My mom taught me how to make the best BLT in the world. I was raised a veggie boy. Not much meat in our house.
Then it got really cold.. and started sleeting.
Jay, his brother Nate and I went outside to play in the ice. We had fun.
Then later in the evening Jenna called me. Hahaha!! I haven't heard someone laugh that hard for sooo long, in a long time!
Sometimes i really think that i am a magnet for people who need someone to listen, understand, and help them, help them self's.. or does everyone out there need someone like that? maybe both. Well, she is now my closest new school friend.
Well, its 1:30 am. and i just checked the weather. It says
"4am 25 Degrees Ice Pellets, 7am 23 Degrees Partly cloudy"
So, i dont think there is going to be school tomorrow ether.
But if there is i will be ready!!
Monday, January 26, 2009
Sleep in Monday - Day 5
Over the weekend I stayed at my mom's house. Witch is also Camp Tonkawa. Up there we are building on to the house that my mom lives in. While i was eating lunch, Austin and Randy (My moms boyfriend) were on the roof. Then i hear Austin Shouting, and running towards the pasture.
Turns out that Scout, the youngest horse that we have, that actually belongs to Austin. Tried to jump a barbwire fence when the other horses were chasing her.
It was bad. Very bad. Her front right leg got a very large gash that tore one of her leg mussels, It took the vet 30 minutes to get there. In the end we had to cut off her main leg mussel that helps pickup the leg. I really hope that she will be able to run again :(
Visiting with my mom was nice. I was great sleeping in for once. Having food made for me. Not having to worry about making it to class on the other side of school in 10 minutes when there are so many distractions.
It was also good to be with Austin.
I was up at 7, and got to walk around outside and clear my head for the day ahead of me. I told dad last night that i wanted him to take me before he left for work.
Today would have been the perfect day to just Sleep! And not wake up until 11ish
out of bed, in the car, talked to mom, walked in through the parking lot, THEN i realized I was going to school again. I guess there is a little robot in everyone.
In the morning i like to hang out between the W hall and the Commons, with Kaytee Tori Nicole and whoever is over there at the time.
People i know are always happy to see me, And i am happy to see them happy to see me! They only know me because i was happy and the happiness will never end! They will make me happy and I to them. Its an awesome circle of happiness.
I do not have a happy circle in English, that makes things suck sometimes. When i need something to lift my spirits.
I never knew that there was a difference between "Allison" and "Illusion" Until today. And i also did not notice how much i embarrass girls. Just to be fun, I saw this girl i met the day before. and walked up with my hand out like i wanted to shake her hand. When they extend there hand to shake mine, i grab it with both of my hands and on down on one knee and bow my head. Its always great fun! they blush and giggle if you do it with a straight face. But I am not so good at keeping giggles hidden. It takes practice, i haven't mastered it yet.
Me and Jenna have "officially" become friends. She said so in lunch today :) At her lunch table, every one of them are girls. She invited me to have lunch with them tomorrow, i'm excited. In Algebra she sits in front of me and we will play the looking game the whole time. but shes a lot funner to play with then strangers that just think i am creepy. Since people know that i was homeschooled, i can make people believe almost anything! They now think that i have to straighten my hair everyday because it is sooo curly it looks like i got a Jew Frow. Someday i am going to wear this wig i got, it looks just like i described it in class! hahaha!!
I actually knew what the teacher was teaching today in Algebra and helped Jenna understand. Now all of the people that are next to me, go to me for questions that they have. God, I'm not that smart! But i did help as much as i could at the time. I really regret not stopping at the bathroom on the way over to this class. I had to pee soooo bad. But we only get 5 bathroom breaks per 9 weeks... so i held it in. but when i left that class i informed everyone around me that i had to pee and skipped away. I love it when people give me weird looks! I'd rather weird then none.
I saw White Steve in the hallway with his girlfriend and also informed them i had to pee, then told someone that was a complete stranger. Then i found a bathroom. I never knew it could feel SOOO good to piss.
I met a new friend in Outdoor ed today, he seems cool. His name is Ian, and he likes a lot of the same music i like. Megan, Danni, Kole, Ian, Stephani and I all sat together and worked on our homework witch was the hunter education coarse test. It was quite easy. Thanks to my friend Joe, i know a lot about guns and gun safety. All my friends in this class keep track of everything i bring for lunch. Because on the first day, i talked to them all about how you should eat fruit before eating anything else. You dont want your fruit stuck behind some heavy food like bread or meat. It takes 20 minutes for fruit to pass through your stomach. Depending on what kind of meat, it could take up to 5 hours for meat to pass.
I guess i had an impression on them about food and eating good.
By the time lunch came around, i was starving.. Freakin D lunch. I ate a big piece of garlic bread with cheese on it that Helena bought me, after i ate my banana of course.
I sit at the most mixed matched table in the entire lunchroom.. I sit with Eric, hes half cowboy half man slut. Helena, the biggest flirt that has a boyfriend. Morgen, the girl that is in theater and seems like the smartest. Short shorts girl from Germany. Tyler, ROTC guy that stutters. Danni, the only other freshman that fallows me around. Some emo looking girl. And lastly, the most unsocial person i have ever seen... I am going to change things up tomorrow.
Near the end of lunch i found The Wal-Mart girl again and sat talking to her. Then Everyone stood up at the same time.. No matter how many times i see this it always amazes me. I totally want to find a group of people, and about 20 minutes before the bell rings. Have everyone stand up at put there backpacks on and see if anyone fallows. and see how many people stand up before they notice that its not time to go. That is the only reason i can think of why they all stand up in unison. They just fallow everyone around them. Lost minds..
In my Ag class we finished watching "The Ultimate Gift" Awesome movie. go watch it, it almost made me cry. This new girl came in the beginning of class. She walks in the room and i am still standing.
I said "hey"
She stops, turns her head a little while looking at me and says "Hi, Do i know you"
With a smile i say "My names Madisun, You do now. Whats yours?"
"Karlin, I dont think i know you"
"I just told you! you know me now."
"MmHmm, well its nice to know you.. now"
She was a fast thinker. And she is also a person who will talk to people without being talked to first. I haven't found a school goer like this yet.
After talking for a while, i find out that she works at Chick-ful-a. And one time when i was there i saw her and complemented on her bracelet that the got from her parents for Christmas! BAM! She remembered me, and i was glad to have a new exciting friend in a class that needed one! Everything seems to workout sometimes :)
After school, i know where the people i know hangout at. So i went to make my rounds and give free hugs.
When i was outside, Jay called me. I told him that if he wanted to he could come pick me up from school. He came and got me after i chilled and talked with Dillon, Jenna and some other random people i dont know but might know tomorrow, one of witch said that i was there new favorite person.
I made friends with this girl named Emma and walked a little with her, because she walks home everyday. Then Jay found me and we left!
Ms. Welch said that in the morning, there might be ice. So watch the news to see if school is out or not. I really hope its NOT! i am having so much fun i wouldn't want to miss a day of it YET!!! :)
Today i made 3 People laugh so hard they cried.
Turns out that Scout, the youngest horse that we have, that actually belongs to Austin. Tried to jump a barbwire fence when the other horses were chasing her.
It was bad. Very bad. Her front right leg got a very large gash that tore one of her leg mussels, It took the vet 30 minutes to get there. In the end we had to cut off her main leg mussel that helps pickup the leg. I really hope that she will be able to run again :(
Visiting with my mom was nice. I was great sleeping in for once. Having food made for me. Not having to worry about making it to class on the other side of school in 10 minutes when there are so many distractions.
It was also good to be with Austin.
I was up at 7, and got to walk around outside and clear my head for the day ahead of me. I told dad last night that i wanted him to take me before he left for work.
Today would have been the perfect day to just Sleep! And not wake up until 11ish
out of bed, in the car, talked to mom, walked in through the parking lot, THEN i realized I was going to school again. I guess there is a little robot in everyone.
In the morning i like to hang out between the W hall and the Commons, with Kaytee Tori Nicole and whoever is over there at the time.
People i know are always happy to see me, And i am happy to see them happy to see me! They only know me because i was happy and the happiness will never end! They will make me happy and I to them. Its an awesome circle of happiness.
I do not have a happy circle in English, that makes things suck sometimes. When i need something to lift my spirits.
I never knew that there was a difference between "Allison" and "Illusion" Until today. And i also did not notice how much i embarrass girls. Just to be fun, I saw this girl i met the day before. and walked up with my hand out like i wanted to shake her hand. When they extend there hand to shake mine, i grab it with both of my hands and on down on one knee and bow my head. Its always great fun! they blush and giggle if you do it with a straight face. But I am not so good at keeping giggles hidden. It takes practice, i haven't mastered it yet.
Me and Jenna have "officially" become friends. She said so in lunch today :) At her lunch table, every one of them are girls. She invited me to have lunch with them tomorrow, i'm excited. In Algebra she sits in front of me and we will play the looking game the whole time. but shes a lot funner to play with then strangers that just think i am creepy. Since people know that i was homeschooled, i can make people believe almost anything! They now think that i have to straighten my hair everyday because it is sooo curly it looks like i got a Jew Frow. Someday i am going to wear this wig i got, it looks just like i described it in class! hahaha!!
I actually knew what the teacher was teaching today in Algebra and helped Jenna understand. Now all of the people that are next to me, go to me for questions that they have. God, I'm not that smart! But i did help as much as i could at the time. I really regret not stopping at the bathroom on the way over to this class. I had to pee soooo bad. But we only get 5 bathroom breaks per 9 weeks... so i held it in. but when i left that class i informed everyone around me that i had to pee and skipped away. I love it when people give me weird looks! I'd rather weird then none.
I saw White Steve in the hallway with his girlfriend and also informed them i had to pee, then told someone that was a complete stranger. Then i found a bathroom. I never knew it could feel SOOO good to piss.
I met a new friend in Outdoor ed today, he seems cool. His name is Ian, and he likes a lot of the same music i like. Megan, Danni, Kole, Ian, Stephani and I all sat together and worked on our homework witch was the hunter education coarse test. It was quite easy. Thanks to my friend Joe, i know a lot about guns and gun safety. All my friends in this class keep track of everything i bring for lunch. Because on the first day, i talked to them all about how you should eat fruit before eating anything else. You dont want your fruit stuck behind some heavy food like bread or meat. It takes 20 minutes for fruit to pass through your stomach. Depending on what kind of meat, it could take up to 5 hours for meat to pass.
I guess i had an impression on them about food and eating good.
By the time lunch came around, i was starving.. Freakin D lunch. I ate a big piece of garlic bread with cheese on it that Helena bought me, after i ate my banana of course.
I sit at the most mixed matched table in the entire lunchroom.. I sit with Eric, hes half cowboy half man slut. Helena, the biggest flirt that has a boyfriend. Morgen, the girl that is in theater and seems like the smartest. Short shorts girl from Germany. Tyler, ROTC guy that stutters. Danni, the only other freshman that fallows me around. Some emo looking girl. And lastly, the most unsocial person i have ever seen... I am going to change things up tomorrow.
Near the end of lunch i found The Wal-Mart girl again and sat talking to her. Then Everyone stood up at the same time.. No matter how many times i see this it always amazes me. I totally want to find a group of people, and about 20 minutes before the bell rings. Have everyone stand up at put there backpacks on and see if anyone fallows. and see how many people stand up before they notice that its not time to go. That is the only reason i can think of why they all stand up in unison. They just fallow everyone around them. Lost minds..
In my Ag class we finished watching "The Ultimate Gift" Awesome movie. go watch it, it almost made me cry. This new girl came in the beginning of class. She walks in the room and i am still standing.
I said "hey"
She stops, turns her head a little while looking at me and says "Hi, Do i know you"
With a smile i say "My names Madisun, You do now. Whats yours?"
"Karlin, I dont think i know you"
"I just told you! you know me now."
"MmHmm, well its nice to know you.. now"
She was a fast thinker. And she is also a person who will talk to people without being talked to first. I haven't found a school goer like this yet.
After talking for a while, i find out that she works at Chick-ful-a. And one time when i was there i saw her and complemented on her bracelet that the got from her parents for Christmas! BAM! She remembered me, and i was glad to have a new exciting friend in a class that needed one! Everything seems to workout sometimes :)
After school, i know where the people i know hangout at. So i went to make my rounds and give free hugs.
When i was outside, Jay called me. I told him that if he wanted to he could come pick me up from school. He came and got me after i chilled and talked with Dillon, Jenna and some other random people i dont know but might know tomorrow, one of witch said that i was there new favorite person.
I made friends with this girl named Emma and walked a little with her, because she walks home everyday. Then Jay found me and we left!
Ms. Welch said that in the morning, there might be ice. So watch the news to see if school is out or not. I really hope its NOT! i am having so much fun i wouldn't want to miss a day of it YET!!! :)
Today i made 3 People laugh so hard they cried.
Saturday, January 24, 2009
"Do nothing FRIDAY!" day 4
I woke up today with a mission.
I wanted to see how many people i could get to touch my beard!
Driving to school alone was way different. I didn't like it that much. I am going to try and have someone take me tomorrow.
There was a lot more traffic then i thought, but i made it there all the same. Parked, walked into school then found Kaytee, Tori, Nicole. Chilled with them then found Jenna and Dillon. They are getting clingy and more comfortable. But i dont mind. I just hope it doesn't get out of hand. I really dont remember about the morning much, way to sleepy.
There was a sub in English today. She seemed way cooler then Mrs. Rayome and i have decided that is the reason i dont like English that much. Right when we sat down, an announcement went out saying that there was a pep rally going on in 10 minutes and everyone BUT the freshman were welcome to go. We convinced the sub that it was important for us to support our schools teams. She let us go anyway! i was sooooo excited to go. never been to one. I looked like the whole school was there, all in the bigger gym. I lost my class and found Nicole! she was in the band and she plays the flute. So i sat next to her because she was right in front. Watching that pep rally was one of the coolest things i have ever done in school!!! Wow! all of the cheerleaders were there and everything! Everyone that i talked to about it said "that was one of the worst pep rallys Marcus has had" but i extremely enjoyed it.
Back to class. Class went on longer because of the rally but somehow it all seemed to work out in the end. We took a test in English, that i didn't study for. I wonder how i did.
It actually accrued to me that there was no class tomorrow! I was sad. I really was. I am having so much fun. 3 people have told me this.. And every time i wanted to argue with them. They said "I wish i loved school as much as you do" AHHH!!! why cant they see that it is there choice to love or hate. and that is the difference of night and day!! I really hope that i can get across to them and inform them that its there life there living and they can live in happiness just by thinking differently!
Algebra, Its gotta be one of my favorite classes. The teacher is awesome and I get to sit next to cool people that dont know my tricks yet. I sat behind Jenna again. and there is a window on the wall i am backed up to. Teacher said that we can open the windows if we wanted to! i was very happy about this. I sat in class with my arms over my head and out the window and the wind was blowing and i could hear the birds and cars. One time i got to look out the window and i actually saw life going out outside of school! Haha! Its the little things in life that really make someone’s day and that made it for me.
This freshman level math class is still easy for me, thank god. The teacher said "I'll make everything mathaical for you guys" Like magical! haha!! i laughed sooo hard i cried. Even better, I was the only one who laughed! Every single person was staring at me like i was the drunk guy at a party with a lamp shade on his head. It was great :)
Once in the hallway for my next class, my favorite class of all time!!! I remembered to fill up my water bottle that i had with me. The biggest problem i have with school is that i get dehydrated, we never do anything active. So i never even think about going to get a drink.
Coach Odle gets there, calls role, then says with a smirk "Well, its Do nothing friday! Lets go out side everyone and watch the girls play soccer" It was a fun day. I saw the German girl (the short shorts girl) again in the hallway on the way outside. She seems nice.
While we were outside i made everyone believe i didn't know what kuddos were. they spent an hour trying to explain to me what they were. It was a fun day. This girl playing soccer got nailed in the head by a ball. I felt bad for her, but it was entertaining. After a wile we started talking about music and comedy. For a moment i really felt like a schoolgoer. it was crazy. Then off in the distance i saw a hawk, and my train of thought fell off its track. Haha!! then this wasp comes flying by and everyone freaks.. cept me. and it lands on me, i didn't even care. I was just happy to see some form of nature around. I put the wasp on my hand and held it up so he could fly away.
"Woah!! how did you do that?!"
"Why didn't he sing you!?"
"Are you crazy?!?"
They were like little kids! i couldn't believe my eyes. I deal with kids saying this stuff at Camp Tonkawa, but here? in school? Wow.
I told them everything. We are in that wasp’s home. if someone was in you house and they starting swatting at you and screaming and making HUGE wind drafts would you want to protect your family and yourself?
We had to go back inside. I enjoyed myself outside.
Right when we got back the lunch bell rang.
I ate another sandwich today. It was tasty. Sat with the same people for a bit then found some new people to sit with. I dont want anyone thinking that I am "in there group" I dont like labels on myself. Unless they are unique. It was nice, eating lunch and telling jokes, making people smile. That never fails to put a smile on MY face! Then this girl walks past with this nasty ass hamburger.. OMG! I sat down with her and told her to take apart the meat in it.. and while she was doing that i starting talking about how bad it is for her and what they do to the cows to get that meat. She never finished that burger! I really think that everything that goes in your mouth is just as important as what comes out of it. So think before you speak and eat! it will make you a healthier person! Once i finished eating, i left to find that girl i met at Walmart the other day. I walked around almost every table then she found me! We talked for a wile about herself. They always seem sooo much eager to tell about them selfs then talk about anyone else. Its useful info in meeting new people. I liked her, She seemed more.. Hmmm, mature? Smart? happy? lets just say she knew who she was. That is always a good thing, when you are confident about yourself.
Went right outside for the last hour and fortyfive minutes. Ms. Welch was not feeling ok, so we let us watch a movie. The Ultimate Gift, its a good movie with a lot of meaning. we will get to finish it Monday. That is all i did in that class. Jess doesn't even sit at my table anymore. O well.
Once the bell rang. I went back inside. walked through the school giving free hugs! Found Jenna, then Kaytee, then Morgen, that other girl i know! they are starting to get vicious.. Its scary.. Kaytee wanted me to go out with her next weekend. Then Morgen walked me to my truck and i could just tell that she wanted to makeout. but i didn't let that happen. i have no idea what she is like. I dont want to be tied down to one girl like that, if she was that type to announce it to the word. Girls are like freakin cats (like my dad says) a cat will go piss on a tree so that no other cat will go near it. I dont need that.
I gave Morgen my phone number and told her that a girl asked me out on the 2ed day! she freaked.
"O my god! that was fast, girls are already asking 'You' Out?!?"
"Hey! For your info.. I am a great person! whats wrong with 'Me'?!"
"I didn't mean it like that, I was just saying on the 2ed day in school?"
About an hour later after i left. She sent me a text asking who the girl was that asked me out. I had no idea.
Then later after i ate dinner. She sent a text saying
"We should go walking on the paths sometime."
Whatever happens, happens. I will have fun no matter what.
O yeah!! i almost forgot! 9 people felt my beard today. 3 refused. 4 said it was soft and 3 of them were guys :)
I wanted to see how many people i could get to touch my beard!
Driving to school alone was way different. I didn't like it that much. I am going to try and have someone take me tomorrow.
There was a lot more traffic then i thought, but i made it there all the same. Parked, walked into school then found Kaytee, Tori, Nicole. Chilled with them then found Jenna and Dillon. They are getting clingy and more comfortable. But i dont mind. I just hope it doesn't get out of hand. I really dont remember about the morning much, way to sleepy.
There was a sub in English today. She seemed way cooler then Mrs. Rayome and i have decided that is the reason i dont like English that much. Right when we sat down, an announcement went out saying that there was a pep rally going on in 10 minutes and everyone BUT the freshman were welcome to go. We convinced the sub that it was important for us to support our schools teams. She let us go anyway! i was sooooo excited to go. never been to one. I looked like the whole school was there, all in the bigger gym. I lost my class and found Nicole! she was in the band and she plays the flute. So i sat next to her because she was right in front. Watching that pep rally was one of the coolest things i have ever done in school!!! Wow! all of the cheerleaders were there and everything! Everyone that i talked to about it said "that was one of the worst pep rallys Marcus has had" but i extremely enjoyed it.
Back to class. Class went on longer because of the rally but somehow it all seemed to work out in the end. We took a test in English, that i didn't study for. I wonder how i did.
It actually accrued to me that there was no class tomorrow! I was sad. I really was. I am having so much fun. 3 people have told me this.. And every time i wanted to argue with them. They said "I wish i loved school as much as you do" AHHH!!! why cant they see that it is there choice to love or hate. and that is the difference of night and day!! I really hope that i can get across to them and inform them that its there life there living and they can live in happiness just by thinking differently!
Algebra, Its gotta be one of my favorite classes. The teacher is awesome and I get to sit next to cool people that dont know my tricks yet. I sat behind Jenna again. and there is a window on the wall i am backed up to. Teacher said that we can open the windows if we wanted to! i was very happy about this. I sat in class with my arms over my head and out the window and the wind was blowing and i could hear the birds and cars. One time i got to look out the window and i actually saw life going out outside of school! Haha! Its the little things in life that really make someone’s day and that made it for me.
This freshman level math class is still easy for me, thank god. The teacher said "I'll make everything mathaical for you guys" Like magical! haha!! i laughed sooo hard i cried. Even better, I was the only one who laughed! Every single person was staring at me like i was the drunk guy at a party with a lamp shade on his head. It was great :)
Once in the hallway for my next class, my favorite class of all time!!! I remembered to fill up my water bottle that i had with me. The biggest problem i have with school is that i get dehydrated, we never do anything active. So i never even think about going to get a drink.
Coach Odle gets there, calls role, then says with a smirk "Well, its Do nothing friday! Lets go out side everyone and watch the girls play soccer" It was a fun day. I saw the German girl (the short shorts girl) again in the hallway on the way outside. She seems nice.
While we were outside i made everyone believe i didn't know what kuddos were. they spent an hour trying to explain to me what they were. It was a fun day. This girl playing soccer got nailed in the head by a ball. I felt bad for her, but it was entertaining. After a wile we started talking about music and comedy. For a moment i really felt like a schoolgoer. it was crazy. Then off in the distance i saw a hawk, and my train of thought fell off its track. Haha!! then this wasp comes flying by and everyone freaks.. cept me. and it lands on me, i didn't even care. I was just happy to see some form of nature around. I put the wasp on my hand and held it up so he could fly away.
"Woah!! how did you do that?!"
"Why didn't he sing you!?"
"Are you crazy?!?"
They were like little kids! i couldn't believe my eyes. I deal with kids saying this stuff at Camp Tonkawa, but here? in school? Wow.
I told them everything. We are in that wasp’s home. if someone was in you house and they starting swatting at you and screaming and making HUGE wind drafts would you want to protect your family and yourself?
We had to go back inside. I enjoyed myself outside.
Right when we got back the lunch bell rang.
I ate another sandwich today. It was tasty. Sat with the same people for a bit then found some new people to sit with. I dont want anyone thinking that I am "in there group" I dont like labels on myself. Unless they are unique. It was nice, eating lunch and telling jokes, making people smile. That never fails to put a smile on MY face! Then this girl walks past with this nasty ass hamburger.. OMG! I sat down with her and told her to take apart the meat in it.. and while she was doing that i starting talking about how bad it is for her and what they do to the cows to get that meat. She never finished that burger! I really think that everything that goes in your mouth is just as important as what comes out of it. So think before you speak and eat! it will make you a healthier person! Once i finished eating, i left to find that girl i met at Walmart the other day. I walked around almost every table then she found me! We talked for a wile about herself. They always seem sooo much eager to tell about them selfs then talk about anyone else. Its useful info in meeting new people. I liked her, She seemed more.. Hmmm, mature? Smart? happy? lets just say she knew who she was. That is always a good thing, when you are confident about yourself.
Went right outside for the last hour and fortyfive minutes. Ms. Welch was not feeling ok, so we let us watch a movie. The Ultimate Gift, its a good movie with a lot of meaning. we will get to finish it Monday. That is all i did in that class. Jess doesn't even sit at my table anymore. O well.
Once the bell rang. I went back inside. walked through the school giving free hugs! Found Jenna, then Kaytee, then Morgen, that other girl i know! they are starting to get vicious.. Its scary.. Kaytee wanted me to go out with her next weekend. Then Morgen walked me to my truck and i could just tell that she wanted to makeout. but i didn't let that happen. i have no idea what she is like. I dont want to be tied down to one girl like that, if she was that type to announce it to the word. Girls are like freakin cats (like my dad says) a cat will go piss on a tree so that no other cat will go near it. I dont need that.
I gave Morgen my phone number and told her that a girl asked me out on the 2ed day! she freaked.
"O my god! that was fast, girls are already asking 'You' Out?!?"
"Hey! For your info.. I am a great person! whats wrong with 'Me'?!"
"I didn't mean it like that, I was just saying on the 2ed day in school?"
About an hour later after i left. She sent me a text asking who the girl was that asked me out. I had no idea.
Then later after i ate dinner. She sent a text saying
"We should go walking on the paths sometime."
Whatever happens, happens. I will have fun no matter what.
O yeah!! i almost forgot! 9 people felt my beard today. 3 refused. 4 said it was soft and 3 of them were guys :)
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Day 3!
Today was awesome!! My best day at school! so far! haha
Last night around 9 i went to walmart to go buy some shampoo, conditioner and more school supplies for English 1 and Algebra 1. There was this cute girl by the supplies with a Marcus sport jacket on. So i asked her what class she was buying for. then told her about my school story :)
I am starting to notice that going to school and pushing myself to talk to people i normally wouldn't talk to, is really making me a more confidant person. It is really nice to see that in myself. Just as long it doesn't become over confidence.
Dad said that he could take me to school because i still dont have a parking sticker. So i had to wake up at 7:15 again... That was rough. I really felt like i woke up in the shower, thats when i noticed i wasn't in my bed anymore.
Got to school and went straight to the office to give them this form that i forgot to give them after school yesterday, that was saying i would be out of town the first week in February for the CRUISE i'm going on with Dad, Austin, Elliot, Caitie, Rachel (Austins gf) and My friend Joe. Haha they said they'd give me the homework for when i am gone. Like i am going to do homework on a ship that doesn't sleep!! There funny.
Walking aimlessly through the school. I found a group of girls i knew. So i chilled with them and met some more poeple in the process. O yeah! i was experimenting something! I put on my orange shirt and orange button up long sleave shirt to see how much more attention i would get and i got TONS more. More and more people have noticed me and remembered me, it was crazy. Today, so many of them knew who i was before i knew them! They said there friend told them about me! This guy in the bathroom when i was going pee, said "Hey! your that 17 year old freshman arn't you!" that was a great accomplishment for me!
OOok, My first class never seems to go well for me. but today was just fine. Nothing really happended. Very boring class. But at least its easy :) The teacher is a very good teacher. I found out that even when she isn't saying anything at all and everything she does, she is still trying to teach you. I could tell that she was dedicated to her work. I still got some homework tho. And i dont feel like doing it. There is going to be a sub in that class tomorrow.
On my way to Alg 1, I went the long way outside to get some fresh air. And walking in the half dead and trampled grass as the school's shadow loomed over me. I felt very cold, so i did a little Tai Chi to get my blood and enegry pumping. Almost didn't make it to class in time. I sat down in the same seat i was in yesterday. Then when everyone was seated, i went to go sit behind that girl i asked her name on the paper on the first day. She seemed fun. and she was. haha! I think her name is Jenna, Not postive tho. i am very glad i went over there because the people on that side of the classroom are funnner to mess with. One girl that wasn't Jenna, that i was talking to, Said "So why are you so happy to be in school? Did Homeschool suck or somehting?"
"I just chose to have fun. Yes school could suck really bad if i wanted it to. But I have the choice to look at the bright side or not. I want to live my life in happiness, So i chose to look at the bright side of things and spread the happiness to the ones that want it."
She really didn't say anything back, but when class was over she walked with me to the commons. We did some some work in that class, but it still seemed easy. and i do have a little homework. maybe if i have time i'll do it. maybe not!! :D
I did not find anyone i knew in the commons, so i left for my Outdoor Ed class. On the way there was this teacher standing out side her classroom door. I say with a smile "Hello, how are you doing today?" She says "I am great! how are you!! Wait dont tell me your name! i remember it." wait? what? I know this teacher?
"You name starts with an M, right?"
"Yes it does actually! when did i meet you?"
"Your first day, you introduced your self and by the way i love your shirt!"
"O yeah! thats right! your the art teacher! and thank you! its one of my favorites"
I had no idea who she was or when i met her but thats cool that she remember me :)
After some chit chat she told me to get to class before the bell went off.
I get to my classes hallway and i sit with my crew. I started telling jokes and stuff, then all of the girl tennis players walked by in there short shorts. And one of them knew me!! haha!! she stopped to say "hi" She is actually an exchange student from Germany. I started playing games with people. You stare at them untill they look at you then you look away. And after a while there like "Waaat, why are you looking at me" then i'll go over there and talk to them. Coach Odle was gone most of the time. We watched a Hunter Education movie that had this dude with an awesome beard. After that we got to go outside to watch the girls play soccer. It was really nice out, and i found some more people that knew me out there in the bleachers. I'd Say that about 100 people know my face by now.
Lunch! My fellow freshman, Danni, likes to sit with me. I dont think he has made any other friends yet. I like him tho, i sure hope he will come out of his box a little. I ate my watermelon then bought a sandwitch and it was amazing! way better then the pizza i had yesterday. I sat with Tyler Jones, Eric, Danni that girl from Germany with the short shorts (she didn't have them on anymore) and that first group i sat the on Tuesday. Haha! This girl came up to me and said that one of her friends wanted to know if i wanted to go on a date. I said no. I dont even know what she looks like. and if she really wanted to ask me out the she could have done it and not her friend. But hey! 3rd day! and a girl already asked me out!!! heck yeah!!
It is really crazy to just watch all of the people. its like they know.. like there mind all of sudden says "Ok! time to go to class!" and swear!! they all leave at the same time!!! and there is ONE clock in that room. there almost mindless robots trying to make fashion statments.
When i was leaving for my Ag class, This girl say "Thats him! thats the guy i met in Walmart Last night!" I didn't even recognize her, but she was happy to see me! i told her i would sit with her and her friends tomorrow, then left for class.
I really like my schedule. Least favorite class first, then Algebra and i love Outdoor ed. Lunch is also fun. Specialty Ag is easy, but it would be a lot funner if there was some cooler people in there. Most of them dont even want to be there and thats all they think about. I like the class but when your almost the only one.. its different in a way.
Jess is kind of bitchy. but that was exspected of her. When you point out a flaw about someones life or accuse them of something they are blind to, they will push away because they are soo used to there life they dont want anyone/anything sturing it up. It is her choice to be my friend or not and when you push anything apon someone, there initial instincts are to push back. We played some team leadership games outside, but no one even cared cept me. Lazy bum robots who hate there lives :D
I spent a lot of time out side today. I am glad, it was a nice day all around.
When class let out, i heading back in the schools cafeteria. And found Jenna and her friends. Then found Dillon, he said he could take me home but first i needed to get my parking sticker. So Jenna and Dillon escorted me to the office i needed to go to. On the way out i found black Steve and white Steve and his cute girl friend. then left with Dillon and his friend Spencer. Spencers mom dropped me off at my house. And i am freaking Tired. Some were in here i took a break and finished my homework. So i'm thinking about hittin the hay. Getting a little less shut eye now a days :)
Thanks for reading!!!!
Last night around 9 i went to walmart to go buy some shampoo, conditioner and more school supplies for English 1 and Algebra 1. There was this cute girl by the supplies with a Marcus sport jacket on. So i asked her what class she was buying for. then told her about my school story :)
I am starting to notice that going to school and pushing myself to talk to people i normally wouldn't talk to, is really making me a more confidant person. It is really nice to see that in myself. Just as long it doesn't become over confidence.
Dad said that he could take me to school because i still dont have a parking sticker. So i had to wake up at 7:15 again... That was rough. I really felt like i woke up in the shower, thats when i noticed i wasn't in my bed anymore.
Got to school and went straight to the office to give them this form that i forgot to give them after school yesterday, that was saying i would be out of town the first week in February for the CRUISE i'm going on with Dad, Austin, Elliot, Caitie, Rachel (Austins gf) and My friend Joe. Haha they said they'd give me the homework for when i am gone. Like i am going to do homework on a ship that doesn't sleep!! There funny.
Walking aimlessly through the school. I found a group of girls i knew. So i chilled with them and met some more poeple in the process. O yeah! i was experimenting something! I put on my orange shirt and orange button up long sleave shirt to see how much more attention i would get and i got TONS more. More and more people have noticed me and remembered me, it was crazy. Today, so many of them knew who i was before i knew them! They said there friend told them about me! This guy in the bathroom when i was going pee, said "Hey! your that 17 year old freshman arn't you!" that was a great accomplishment for me!
OOok, My first class never seems to go well for me. but today was just fine. Nothing really happended. Very boring class. But at least its easy :) The teacher is a very good teacher. I found out that even when she isn't saying anything at all and everything she does, she is still trying to teach you. I could tell that she was dedicated to her work. I still got some homework tho. And i dont feel like doing it. There is going to be a sub in that class tomorrow.
On my way to Alg 1, I went the long way outside to get some fresh air. And walking in the half dead and trampled grass as the school's shadow loomed over me. I felt very cold, so i did a little Tai Chi to get my blood and enegry pumping. Almost didn't make it to class in time. I sat down in the same seat i was in yesterday. Then when everyone was seated, i went to go sit behind that girl i asked her name on the paper on the first day. She seemed fun. and she was. haha! I think her name is Jenna, Not postive tho. i am very glad i went over there because the people on that side of the classroom are funnner to mess with. One girl that wasn't Jenna, that i was talking to, Said "So why are you so happy to be in school? Did Homeschool suck or somehting?"
"I just chose to have fun. Yes school could suck really bad if i wanted it to. But I have the choice to look at the bright side or not. I want to live my life in happiness, So i chose to look at the bright side of things and spread the happiness to the ones that want it."
She really didn't say anything back, but when class was over she walked with me to the commons. We did some some work in that class, but it still seemed easy. and i do have a little homework. maybe if i have time i'll do it. maybe not!! :D
I did not find anyone i knew in the commons, so i left for my Outdoor Ed class. On the way there was this teacher standing out side her classroom door. I say with a smile "Hello, how are you doing today?" She says "I am great! how are you!! Wait dont tell me your name! i remember it." wait? what? I know this teacher?
"You name starts with an M, right?"
"Yes it does actually! when did i meet you?"
"Your first day, you introduced your self and by the way i love your shirt!"
"O yeah! thats right! your the art teacher! and thank you! its one of my favorites"
I had no idea who she was or when i met her but thats cool that she remember me :)
After some chit chat she told me to get to class before the bell went off.
I get to my classes hallway and i sit with my crew. I started telling jokes and stuff, then all of the girl tennis players walked by in there short shorts. And one of them knew me!! haha!! she stopped to say "hi" She is actually an exchange student from Germany. I started playing games with people. You stare at them untill they look at you then you look away. And after a while there like "Waaat, why are you looking at me" then i'll go over there and talk to them. Coach Odle was gone most of the time. We watched a Hunter Education movie that had this dude with an awesome beard. After that we got to go outside to watch the girls play soccer. It was really nice out, and i found some more people that knew me out there in the bleachers. I'd Say that about 100 people know my face by now.
Lunch! My fellow freshman, Danni, likes to sit with me. I dont think he has made any other friends yet. I like him tho, i sure hope he will come out of his box a little. I ate my watermelon then bought a sandwitch and it was amazing! way better then the pizza i had yesterday. I sat with Tyler Jones, Eric, Danni that girl from Germany with the short shorts (she didn't have them on anymore) and that first group i sat the on Tuesday. Haha! This girl came up to me and said that one of her friends wanted to know if i wanted to go on a date. I said no. I dont even know what she looks like. and if she really wanted to ask me out the she could have done it and not her friend. But hey! 3rd day! and a girl already asked me out!!! heck yeah!!
It is really crazy to just watch all of the people. its like they know.. like there mind all of sudden says "Ok! time to go to class!" and swear!! they all leave at the same time!!! and there is ONE clock in that room. there almost mindless robots trying to make fashion statments.
When i was leaving for my Ag class, This girl say "Thats him! thats the guy i met in Walmart Last night!" I didn't even recognize her, but she was happy to see me! i told her i would sit with her and her friends tomorrow, then left for class.
I really like my schedule. Least favorite class first, then Algebra and i love Outdoor ed. Lunch is also fun. Specialty Ag is easy, but it would be a lot funner if there was some cooler people in there. Most of them dont even want to be there and thats all they think about. I like the class but when your almost the only one.. its different in a way.
Jess is kind of bitchy. but that was exspected of her. When you point out a flaw about someones life or accuse them of something they are blind to, they will push away because they are soo used to there life they dont want anyone/anything sturing it up. It is her choice to be my friend or not and when you push anything apon someone, there initial instincts are to push back. We played some team leadership games outside, but no one even cared cept me. Lazy bum robots who hate there lives :D
I spent a lot of time out side today. I am glad, it was a nice day all around.
When class let out, i heading back in the schools cafeteria. And found Jenna and her friends. Then found Dillon, he said he could take me home but first i needed to get my parking sticker. So Jenna and Dillon escorted me to the office i needed to go to. On the way out i found black Steve and white Steve and his cute girl friend. then left with Dillon and his friend Spencer. Spencers mom dropped me off at my house. And i am freaking Tired. Some were in here i took a break and finished my homework. So i'm thinking about hittin the hay. Getting a little less shut eye now a days :)
Thanks for reading!!!!
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Day 2
I woke up the same way i did yesterday! haha!! I was out of bed by 7:30. Austin Urias, a fellow school goer that i am friends with and lives a few houses down for me agreed to take me to school. I rode with Austin, his brother and sister (shes kinda cute). I walked into the back of the school and made my way to the office to give them the last of the forms I had to fill out. On my way I ran into Alissandrea (A really awesome exchange student from Rome and was going to move in with me) and it was really nice to see her. Her host family right now is kicking her out but she is grounded untill she leaves. So i never get to see her. I also found this group of people that I met a barns and noble, playing chess with anyone who wants to play. their names were Kaytee, Tori, Nicole and Collin.
I make it to the office with out any other encounters. But i did intercept a few high fives that people were giving echother. They didn't like that much! haha! just the look on there faces. So, I am in front of the office and there is this line of students out the door.. sat in line for about a minute, then decided to just cut in front of everyone. One thing i have learned from my brother Austin, is that if you do things with confidence, no one will question you. worked wonders! no one said a thing!!
Off to first period!!
On my way to engish 1, I freaked out Dillon, one of my friends that used to live across the street from me.
In that classroom... Was the first time i got troubled. the enegry in that classroom really clashed with mine, and started sturing up bad thoughts. that all happened in 5 minutes. Once i noticed that i was getting nervous, shakey, stressed, uncomfortable and down. I put down my pencil closed my eyes, stopped wrighting down what the teacher told me to and meditated for 30 minutes with a smile on my face. No one said a thing to me. Once she turned the projector on and shut off the lights, I some how got everything done without a problem!! Back to my self again. I also met this fun girl in that class named Olivia, haha! it must be a good name because one of my really close homeschooled friends is named Olivia also.
Seconed period i decided to walk around the school to the portable that my class in is. I ran into Tori and Nicole again and gave them some free hugs, then i saw Jay, it was nice to see him. Its so hard to find people you know in school.. theres over 3500 people . Once in class, the teacher wanted to know "Something cool about everyone" no one stood out from any others.. it seemed like all the same storys. So, I told everyone that "i'm 17 year old freshman that was homeschooled all my life and yesterday was just about my first day to school. My family runs a horse and survival camp (that caught some attention) that is up north called Camp Tonkawa and i had a dream last night that i was playing the guitar in a marching band" Hahaha! even the teacher didn't know what to say. a few giggles later i sat down with a big smile on my face. After eveyone went. we started some Algabra. I knew it all already, so that was a confidence booster, not that i needed it. Then the bell rang.
On my way to outdoor ed. i walked passed the commons. The Commons are assinged places for people to stop and talk to others instead of blocking the way. It seemed like a million people were there!!! all of them in their own groups with there friends. It seemed like eveyone of them had something to complain about. And they all wanted to get there story out first.
After ease dropping on some people, i headed off to my class. Outdoor Ed meets in the hallway by the gym. And so far we dont do anything yet. So i made friends with Cole, Christen, Megan, Mckayla, Sara, Micky and Danni. Haha! Cole Looks exactualy like that big guy with the white T shirt on Recess!! and acts like him in a way. Very nice guy. While we sat in that class and hallway, every singel person that looked at me i waved no matter how close they were to me. When they were really close i would extend my hand like i wanted to shake hands and when they stop i would go in for a hug. it was fun.
Today my ID cleared so that means they let me buy some lunch. I ate lunch with Eric and Danni, then someone started talking about taking drugs so i left to go find someone/anyone that i knew or wanted to know me :) The food tasted okay because i was sooo freakin hungry. After lunch i sat outside to get some fresh air and clear my head again. Then i headed off towards my last class.
I was the first one there and stood there holding the door for everyone, and gave complements when needed. I started sitting with Shelby and her friend. But i changed my mind and sat with Jess again. She seemed better then yesterday. "So you seem brighter today" i said with a smile, and her smile vanished. "So, how was your day so far?" i said still smiling,
"Same as everyday, school sucks"
"So is that why your trying to rush your self through school and making it harder for your self so you can 'get out of here' faster?"
"Yeah, you said it"
"So you agree that your making it harder for your self?"
"No"
"Then why arn't you happy about school?"
"Why should i be happy around people i dont even know?!"
"Umm, Why would you not be happy around anyone? To be truly happy, you gotta live IN happiness and not go chacing it?"
"Whatever, i dont even know you"
And she turned around.
O well, its her loss if she doesn't want to be happy about life.
Later in that class, we were talking about Agriculture, and what the science behind it and everything. Well some how Ms. Welch (the teacher) was talking about biology, forestry and stuff like that then she said "Entomology, its not that important"
I said "Hold on! Entomology!? not important?" And starting talking about how we would not be alive if it wasn't for insects! and how we need to know the ratio of bugs so they can eat echother thus protecting our crops. and Jess, said "Well who cares, its survival of the fittest"
"What?!? if you say it like that, if it was survival of the fittest then we all would be dead right now because of starvation. We disrupted the cycle of insects years ago, when we brought Fire Aints, House Crickets, Cockroaches and Bed Bugs. If we didn't study Entomology we would be dead." Jess, was being bitchy but thats okay. with point said i shut up and sat there before i got in trouble. When the bell rang, i went back into the school to see if i could find anyone. I found Jay, Eric, Steve and Dillon. After chilling with them for a little, i met up with some girls and they escorted me to get my parking permet. After that Steve took me home and that was my day! :)
School map
http://i302.photobucket.com/albums/nn93/madisunismyname/schoolmap.jpg
I make it to the office with out any other encounters. But i did intercept a few high fives that people were giving echother. They didn't like that much! haha! just the look on there faces. So, I am in front of the office and there is this line of students out the door.. sat in line for about a minute, then decided to just cut in front of everyone. One thing i have learned from my brother Austin, is that if you do things with confidence, no one will question you. worked wonders! no one said a thing!!
Off to first period!!
On my way to engish 1, I freaked out Dillon, one of my friends that used to live across the street from me.
In that classroom... Was the first time i got troubled. the enegry in that classroom really clashed with mine, and started sturing up bad thoughts. that all happened in 5 minutes. Once i noticed that i was getting nervous, shakey, stressed, uncomfortable and down. I put down my pencil closed my eyes, stopped wrighting down what the teacher told me to and meditated for 30 minutes with a smile on my face. No one said a thing to me. Once she turned the projector on and shut off the lights, I some how got everything done without a problem!! Back to my self again. I also met this fun girl in that class named Olivia, haha! it must be a good name because one of my really close homeschooled friends is named Olivia also.
Seconed period i decided to walk around the school to the portable that my class in is. I ran into Tori and Nicole again and gave them some free hugs, then i saw Jay, it was nice to see him. Its so hard to find people you know in school.. theres over 3500 people . Once in class, the teacher wanted to know "Something cool about everyone" no one stood out from any others.. it seemed like all the same storys. So, I told everyone that "i'm 17 year old freshman that was homeschooled all my life and yesterday was just about my first day to school. My family runs a horse and survival camp (that caught some attention) that is up north called Camp Tonkawa and i had a dream last night that i was playing the guitar in a marching band" Hahaha! even the teacher didn't know what to say. a few giggles later i sat down with a big smile on my face. After eveyone went. we started some Algabra. I knew it all already, so that was a confidence booster, not that i needed it. Then the bell rang.
On my way to outdoor ed. i walked passed the commons. The Commons are assinged places for people to stop and talk to others instead of blocking the way. It seemed like a million people were there!!! all of them in their own groups with there friends. It seemed like eveyone of them had something to complain about. And they all wanted to get there story out first.
After ease dropping on some people, i headed off to my class. Outdoor Ed meets in the hallway by the gym. And so far we dont do anything yet. So i made friends with Cole, Christen, Megan, Mckayla, Sara, Micky and Danni. Haha! Cole Looks exactualy like that big guy with the white T shirt on Recess!! and acts like him in a way. Very nice guy. While we sat in that class and hallway, every singel person that looked at me i waved no matter how close they were to me. When they were really close i would extend my hand like i wanted to shake hands and when they stop i would go in for a hug. it was fun.
Today my ID cleared so that means they let me buy some lunch. I ate lunch with Eric and Danni, then someone started talking about taking drugs so i left to go find someone/anyone that i knew or wanted to know me :) The food tasted okay because i was sooo freakin hungry. After lunch i sat outside to get some fresh air and clear my head again. Then i headed off towards my last class.
I was the first one there and stood there holding the door for everyone, and gave complements when needed. I started sitting with Shelby and her friend. But i changed my mind and sat with Jess again. She seemed better then yesterday. "So you seem brighter today" i said with a smile, and her smile vanished. "So, how was your day so far?" i said still smiling,
"Same as everyday, school sucks"
"So is that why your trying to rush your self through school and making it harder for your self so you can 'get out of here' faster?"
"Yeah, you said it"
"So you agree that your making it harder for your self?"
"No"
"Then why arn't you happy about school?"
"Why should i be happy around people i dont even know?!"
"Umm, Why would you not be happy around anyone? To be truly happy, you gotta live IN happiness and not go chacing it?"
"Whatever, i dont even know you"
And she turned around.
O well, its her loss if she doesn't want to be happy about life.
Later in that class, we were talking about Agriculture, and what the science behind it and everything. Well some how Ms. Welch (the teacher) was talking about biology, forestry and stuff like that then she said "Entomology, its not that important"
I said "Hold on! Entomology!? not important?" And starting talking about how we would not be alive if it wasn't for insects! and how we need to know the ratio of bugs so they can eat echother thus protecting our crops. and Jess, said "Well who cares, its survival of the fittest"
"What?!? if you say it like that, if it was survival of the fittest then we all would be dead right now because of starvation. We disrupted the cycle of insects years ago, when we brought Fire Aints, House Crickets, Cockroaches and Bed Bugs. If we didn't study Entomology we would be dead." Jess, was being bitchy but thats okay. with point said i shut up and sat there before i got in trouble. When the bell rang, i went back into the school to see if i could find anyone. I found Jay, Eric, Steve and Dillon. After chilling with them for a little, i met up with some girls and they escorted me to get my parking permet. After that Steve took me home and that was my day! :)
School map
http://i302.photobucket.com/albums/nn93/madisunismyname/schoolmap.jpg
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Day 1
Woke up at 7 to a techno song jump start the day! And I'll tell you what! My day was rockin!
My dad and I were in the counclors office by 8 and while I was waiting, I starting giving compliments to anyone who didn't look like they were going to bite my head off. And wow! Holy poop! Some of them gave me the worst looks, but others brightened up but most of them looked like robots.
I still dont have my schedule. I have no idea what classes i am going to be in.
Mean while, there are 20 other people trying to get enrolled and waiting in the office. The minutes go by and more and more people come into the office. This lady named Mrs. Richey starts guarding the door and yelling at people telling them "Come back tomorrow if you want your schedule CHANGED!!!!" she was being a bitch about it. Then Jay randomly walks in. It was very nice to see him and he said that he was there to change his schedule. Heh, i said theres no way he's going to get it changed, but i guess it all dependes on who you know and he got it changed.
While i was sitting there, still in the office, dad says "Wow, it seems like everyone is lost" And i thought. Well, they are mostly lost in the head. And my mind starting trailing that thought. So, if someone is actually lost.. they will tend to follow someone who knows where they are going. And if you relay that to mentaly beening lost, the lost will follow people that are stable, decisive, confident and happy. I met a lot of people.
Everywhere i went that day, I brought my positive mental attitude. Giving complimets, smiles, and free hugs. There are a ton of really cute girls that go to Marcus High and i hope some of them remember my face.
First period, Freshman English 1. I walked in in the last 5 minuts. I was very polite to the teacher, i really dont know what shes like though. The classroom looked like it was split in half! girls on one side and guys on the other! I knew one guy in that class. but i sat next the the prettiest girl in the room and starting talking to her. then i had this other cute girl walk me to the book room because i "forgot where it was" (i knew exactly where it was) When i got back the class was over. but the teacher still had time to give me a little hw (home work)
Seconed period, Algebra 1. This was a small class, maybe 15 youngins. Coach Tumilty, she was funny, but no one got her humor but me. So it seemed. That class was full of giggles and smiles. most of the class we watched the innauguration, but this was a time for me to explain that i was a 17 year old freshman. In this classroom half the desks were facing each other, and the teacher would walk in between them. Only 3 guys in that class including me. One of the girls that was across from me started flurting with me, so i wrote really big on a pice of paper "hey, whats your name?" and held it up so she could see. She never answered me. I ate a banana when the teacher wasn't lookin. Coach Tumilty assigned a girl to take me to my next class because i didn't know where it was. No hw :)
Third period, Outdoor Education with Coach Odle. That seemed like an awesome class but since the classes before me watched the innauguration and did not do anything. We didn't have to do anything either. Odle said that we would be going fishing, archery shooting, hockey playing and a lot of stuff outside. I will be having alot of fun in this class. I met some anime fans in this class, bonded a bit to fast and noticed that they were not the crowd i wanted to be in to meet the most amount of people possible. They shunned away a lot of people, i didn't want that. Durning this class, we sat in the hallway waiting for lunch. I finished my homeworkright before the lunch bell rang.
I have D lunch. that means its from 1:50 till 2:25 Its really late and i got very hungry. But i needed my ID number to get lunch, and it didn't clear. So no food for me! yay!!
Lunch was cool, i met up with this girl i knew and talked about the only thing i think they knew about.. Having sex. It was interesting but i kind of wanted to go look for anyone that i knew. But in the end never did.
Fourth period, I gots Special Agriculture. Ms. Welch is really cool, she let me sleep a little then we interviewed each other for a little "get to know you" assignment. I interviewed Jess, she was a Junior. I really think i got her thinking about things she never thought about before. For real. She was in that class because she wanted to graduate early. and that was the only reason. I asked her, "are you happy with your life?" and "why would you want to rush and cram schooling into what could be the best days of your whole life?" Just the way she looked at me made me get the impression that my words had an effect on her. I'll talk to her tomorrow also, so see if i can learn anything new about her.
It seems like the kids here dont understand that one of the most important thing is to live in happiness and love!
When school got out at 4:05, i saw Eric out side. So i agreed to let him take me home.
My dad and I were in the counclors office by 8 and while I was waiting, I starting giving compliments to anyone who didn't look like they were going to bite my head off. And wow! Holy poop! Some of them gave me the worst looks, but others brightened up but most of them looked like robots.
I still dont have my schedule. I have no idea what classes i am going to be in.
Mean while, there are 20 other people trying to get enrolled and waiting in the office. The minutes go by and more and more people come into the office. This lady named Mrs. Richey starts guarding the door and yelling at people telling them "Come back tomorrow if you want your schedule CHANGED!!!!" she was being a bitch about it. Then Jay randomly walks in. It was very nice to see him and he said that he was there to change his schedule. Heh, i said theres no way he's going to get it changed, but i guess it all dependes on who you know and he got it changed.
While i was sitting there, still in the office, dad says "Wow, it seems like everyone is lost" And i thought. Well, they are mostly lost in the head. And my mind starting trailing that thought. So, if someone is actually lost.. they will tend to follow someone who knows where they are going. And if you relay that to mentaly beening lost, the lost will follow people that are stable, decisive, confident and happy. I met a lot of people.
Everywhere i went that day, I brought my positive mental attitude. Giving complimets, smiles, and free hugs. There are a ton of really cute girls that go to Marcus High and i hope some of them remember my face.
First period, Freshman English 1. I walked in in the last 5 minuts. I was very polite to the teacher, i really dont know what shes like though. The classroom looked like it was split in half! girls on one side and guys on the other! I knew one guy in that class. but i sat next the the prettiest girl in the room and starting talking to her. then i had this other cute girl walk me to the book room because i "forgot where it was" (i knew exactly where it was) When i got back the class was over. but the teacher still had time to give me a little hw (home work)
Seconed period, Algebra 1. This was a small class, maybe 15 youngins. Coach Tumilty, she was funny, but no one got her humor but me. So it seemed. That class was full of giggles and smiles. most of the class we watched the innauguration, but this was a time for me to explain that i was a 17 year old freshman. In this classroom half the desks were facing each other, and the teacher would walk in between them. Only 3 guys in that class including me. One of the girls that was across from me started flurting with me, so i wrote really big on a pice of paper "hey, whats your name?" and held it up so she could see. She never answered me. I ate a banana when the teacher wasn't lookin. Coach Tumilty assigned a girl to take me to my next class because i didn't know where it was. No hw :)
Third period, Outdoor Education with Coach Odle. That seemed like an awesome class but since the classes before me watched the innauguration and did not do anything. We didn't have to do anything either. Odle said that we would be going fishing, archery shooting, hockey playing and a lot of stuff outside. I will be having alot of fun in this class. I met some anime fans in this class, bonded a bit to fast and noticed that they were not the crowd i wanted to be in to meet the most amount of people possible. They shunned away a lot of people, i didn't want that. Durning this class, we sat in the hallway waiting for lunch. I finished my homeworkright before the lunch bell rang.
I have D lunch. that means its from 1:50 till 2:25 Its really late and i got very hungry. But i needed my ID number to get lunch, and it didn't clear. So no food for me! yay!!
Lunch was cool, i met up with this girl i knew and talked about the only thing i think they knew about.. Having sex. It was interesting but i kind of wanted to go look for anyone that i knew. But in the end never did.
Fourth period, I gots Special Agriculture. Ms. Welch is really cool, she let me sleep a little then we interviewed each other for a little "get to know you" assignment. I interviewed Jess, she was a Junior. I really think i got her thinking about things she never thought about before. For real. She was in that class because she wanted to graduate early. and that was the only reason. I asked her, "are you happy with your life?" and "why would you want to rush and cram schooling into what could be the best days of your whole life?" Just the way she looked at me made me get the impression that my words had an effect on her. I'll talk to her tomorrow also, so see if i can learn anything new about her.
It seems like the kids here dont understand that one of the most important thing is to live in happiness and love!
When school got out at 4:05, i saw Eric out side. So i agreed to let him take me home.
Monday, January 19, 2009
One More Day
So, why on earth would you be so excited about wanting to go somewhere were most people dread everyday?
My dad wanted to sign me up for DeVry University Institute of Technology. To do so, I needed some kind of diploma. I have no proof of doing any kind of schooling what so ever. My goal is to get my G.E.D and go from there.
I am Not ready to go to Collage. I felt extremely overwhelmed just thinking about it.
After contemplating about it for a week or so, I made up the decision.
Getting a G.E.D does not have an age limit and neither does going to Collage. So why? Why go now to something i am not ready for? Why get stressed out over the future when you need to live in the now and have as much fun as possible when you dont have as many responsibility's. I am going to try as best i can to live my life to its fullest, and going back to highschool would be a great experince to have under my belt. I have nothing to lose. If i dont like it, theres nothing keeping me there. I am still going to be trying in school, but i am not going to let homework get in the way with my happiness. I am going for the solcial experince that will pass me up if i dont jump in it. I am going to be pushing the rules as much as possible, with out having to pay to many consequences.
I am soooo excited i went to the store and bought 72 #2 pencils! I cant wait!!!
My dad wanted to sign me up for DeVry University Institute of Technology. To do so, I needed some kind of diploma. I have no proof of doing any kind of schooling what so ever. My goal is to get my G.E.D and go from there.
I am Not ready to go to Collage. I felt extremely overwhelmed just thinking about it.
After contemplating about it for a week or so, I made up the decision.
Getting a G.E.D does not have an age limit and neither does going to Collage. So why? Why go now to something i am not ready for? Why get stressed out over the future when you need to live in the now and have as much fun as possible when you dont have as many responsibility's. I am going to try as best i can to live my life to its fullest, and going back to highschool would be a great experince to have under my belt. I have nothing to lose. If i dont like it, theres nothing keeping me there. I am still going to be trying in school, but i am not going to let homework get in the way with my happiness. I am going for the solcial experince that will pass me up if i dont jump in it. I am going to be pushing the rules as much as possible, with out having to pay to many consequences.
I am soooo excited i went to the store and bought 72 #2 pencils! I cant wait!!!
Friday, January 16, 2009
Some Friends :)
From the beginning, I have learned from example, ether from seeing my brothers try fail then succeed or learn from my own experiences.
Friends were a difficult thing growing up homeschooled, and it was even harder for me when i was younger. One thing about myself. Everyone I meet, no matter who it is. I learn a lot about that person and a lot about myself in a very short time. And i keep that knowledge with me the best i can, everywhere i go.
I'd say my first best friend was Zach, he lived in my neighborhood and our families were good friends at the time. He was 3 years older then me. Scratch that best friend stuff, he was my only friend. When I look back on that friendship now, he seemed like another brother. He came into my life at the right time and left when it taught me the most. I learned a lot from him, good and bad.
Tyree, 4 years older, he was an awesome guy! I met him in New Mexico, at a wilderness gathering with my mom. For the short time I've seen him. I have made one of the greatest friendships with him. At the time Tyree was in my life, i had no other friends.
I started tagging along with Elliot to homeschool events called "Parkdays" back then, I was just the little brother of one of the coolest homeschoolers ever! In my eyes everyone liked Elliot and still does.
The First girl i ever really liked, her name was McKenna. She was one of my parkday friends. One of the nicest and sweetest girls I know. Back then I was around 12 i think. it was the same time that my parents marriage starting going down the drain. She was there for me. I was blinded by sadness and anger from my family and didn't know what to do. My stupid self back then, pushed her away. And I am still regreating that.
Gabby, Heh, she was a weirdee. But a good friend at that. She inspired me to learn Japnaese and to be differant then anyone else. She now lives in.. wait. She moves a lot but last i heard she is in Idaho living with her dad.
Cassie, the Parkdays were hosted at her house back then. Cassie was always a great friend in her own way. I learned from her, to live life, not let others push you back (she is a very strong willed person) Me and Cassie have a friendship that fades in and out over the years. But when she needs me i am here and same to her.
Jay, o god. He is at the time, my best friend. Haha! he calls himself a "Calculated Risk Analyst" he also says "I'm just a guy with motorcycles! thats all!!" He says a lot of stuff because has a funny mouth. Jay always reminds me that if its do-able then do it. He really lives life the way he wants to. He has been around since Zach but back then, he used to be kinda a jackass. (sorry man, but its kinda true)
Michael Ball (Its always Michael Ball and not just Michael, because hes like Charlie Brown) Me and him were baby buddies. We've known echother since we were 3. We have a very strong friendship but we never talk to echother unless we really need to. I have learned from him to slow down and go with the flow of life, not to let things tie you down and to know that no matter what you are always free to do what you please.
CAITIE!!! She's my sister. Well, i wish :)
I have no idea when she came into my life, But she is Elliots awesome girl friend. She kind of just fit right into my life when i was younger. But now she is one of my bestfriends, always there for me and me to her. She helped me learn that i can be happy in any situation and to also eat slower
Love you Caitie!
Over the past 3 years, I have made a lot of new friends. Some of them are still in my life, but others have come and gone rather quickly. Most of theses newer friends have become extremely special to me and i value there friendship greatly.
If anyone has any questions about any of my friends, please message me!
Friends were a difficult thing growing up homeschooled, and it was even harder for me when i was younger. One thing about myself. Everyone I meet, no matter who it is. I learn a lot about that person and a lot about myself in a very short time. And i keep that knowledge with me the best i can, everywhere i go.
I'd say my first best friend was Zach, he lived in my neighborhood and our families were good friends at the time. He was 3 years older then me. Scratch that best friend stuff, he was my only friend. When I look back on that friendship now, he seemed like another brother. He came into my life at the right time and left when it taught me the most. I learned a lot from him, good and bad.
Tyree, 4 years older, he was an awesome guy! I met him in New Mexico, at a wilderness gathering with my mom. For the short time I've seen him. I have made one of the greatest friendships with him. At the time Tyree was in my life, i had no other friends.
I started tagging along with Elliot to homeschool events called "Parkdays" back then, I was just the little brother of one of the coolest homeschoolers ever! In my eyes everyone liked Elliot and still does.
The First girl i ever really liked, her name was McKenna. She was one of my parkday friends. One of the nicest and sweetest girls I know. Back then I was around 12 i think. it was the same time that my parents marriage starting going down the drain. She was there for me. I was blinded by sadness and anger from my family and didn't know what to do. My stupid self back then, pushed her away. And I am still regreating that.
Gabby, Heh, she was a weirdee. But a good friend at that. She inspired me to learn Japnaese and to be differant then anyone else. She now lives in.. wait. She moves a lot but last i heard she is in Idaho living with her dad.
Cassie, the Parkdays were hosted at her house back then. Cassie was always a great friend in her own way. I learned from her, to live life, not let others push you back (she is a very strong willed person) Me and Cassie have a friendship that fades in and out over the years. But when she needs me i am here and same to her.
Jay, o god. He is at the time, my best friend. Haha! he calls himself a "Calculated Risk Analyst" he also says "I'm just a guy with motorcycles! thats all!!" He says a lot of stuff because has a funny mouth. Jay always reminds me that if its do-able then do it. He really lives life the way he wants to. He has been around since Zach but back then, he used to be kinda a jackass. (sorry man, but its kinda true)
Michael Ball (Its always Michael Ball and not just Michael, because hes like Charlie Brown) Me and him were baby buddies. We've known echother since we were 3. We have a very strong friendship but we never talk to echother unless we really need to. I have learned from him to slow down and go with the flow of life, not to let things tie you down and to know that no matter what you are always free to do what you please.
CAITIE!!! She's my sister. Well, i wish :)
I have no idea when she came into my life, But she is Elliots awesome girl friend. She kind of just fit right into my life when i was younger. But now she is one of my bestfriends, always there for me and me to her. She helped me learn that i can be happy in any situation and to also eat slower
Love you Caitie!
Over the past 3 years, I have made a lot of new friends. Some of them are still in my life, but others have come and gone rather quickly. Most of theses newer friends have become extremely special to me and i value there friendship greatly.
If anyone has any questions about any of my friends, please message me!
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Family - 10 Days Till
My life, as it is in the changing period of me starting highschool again, after being homeschool most all of my life. I think back to how I became the person I am now, how much I have grown, changed, learned upon the mistakes I have made and by the ones that are closest to me.
Heres a little info about my family
I am the youngest of 3, Austin is 7 years older than me, Elliot is 5 years older. Austin seemed to push life hard, always breaking the rules but never having consequences, I learned things I never knew I learned (until recently) though him. He is my motivation and inspiration towards my health and life. He is a very busy person, but when I really need him he will always be there to help in his own way.
Elliot, he is the type of person who when put in a new environment is causious, and hesitant. Once he is comfortable, he takes more risks lets lose and will have some real fun with the people that around him. Happiness is best when shared! :)
Just being around him makes me take things slow and look at how beautiful life can be.
Having amazingly awesome brothers like them have made me my own amazing person also.
Lee, my dad. He is my dad. father is another category he is not in. Sometime I feel like I am the teacher and he is the student, and its very hard to know when these times change. he is a good dad and friend. Very supportive and understanding (after I explain) with troubles I have with people and in my own head. After the divorce (that was 2 years ago) he is living life again! not caught in the stream of "not happy, but rich" that tempts very many people around the world.
I am very happy that he is happy.
My mom, April. She was a wonderful, caring, supportive Mother who loves me very much. She has be my teacher for as long as I can remember and that role will never stop. Growing up in the woods with her and my brothers is something that is priceless and will cherish my INTIRE life. The divorce has been hard for her, and since I am the youngest, I meen alot to her. Times get rough, but as long as you keep your enegrey focused on making the present better, and not trying to fix the past. Then things will be okay.
Heres a little info about my family
I am the youngest of 3, Austin is 7 years older than me, Elliot is 5 years older. Austin seemed to push life hard, always breaking the rules but never having consequences, I learned things I never knew I learned (until recently) though him. He is my motivation and inspiration towards my health and life. He is a very busy person, but when I really need him he will always be there to help in his own way.
Elliot, he is the type of person who when put in a new environment is causious, and hesitant. Once he is comfortable, he takes more risks lets lose and will have some real fun with the people that around him. Happiness is best when shared! :)
Just being around him makes me take things slow and look at how beautiful life can be.
Having amazingly awesome brothers like them have made me my own amazing person also.
Lee, my dad. He is my dad. father is another category he is not in. Sometime I feel like I am the teacher and he is the student, and its very hard to know when these times change. he is a good dad and friend. Very supportive and understanding (after I explain) with troubles I have with people and in my own head. After the divorce (that was 2 years ago) he is living life again! not caught in the stream of "not happy, but rich" that tempts very many people around the world.
I am very happy that he is happy.
My mom, April. She was a wonderful, caring, supportive Mother who loves me very much. She has be my teacher for as long as I can remember and that role will never stop. Growing up in the woods with her and my brothers is something that is priceless and will cherish my INTIRE life. The divorce has been hard for her, and since I am the youngest, I meen alot to her. Times get rough, but as long as you keep your enegrey focused on making the present better, and not trying to fix the past. Then things will be okay.
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