I have been away from school for being sick for a full week now. Its Wednesday and i feel a lot better than before. It has been a very unpleasant week.
I didn't hear from my school friends much, that was kind of disappointing. I really could have gone for some "get well soon's!!" from anyone.
For the past week i have been thinking about my life. About what i am doing, what i want to do in the long run and how i am going about doing that. Right now, if i were to go to collage. I would want to major in sociology and minor in music. There is no way i would want to spend 4 years at highschool to get a highschool diploma. I am only here for the social experience. Along the way, i am learning a little here and there about Math or English. I am still planning on getting my GED and going from there, so why am i starting to feel stressed out from school? Is it because i have been gone for 2 weeks now? (1 week for the cruise, 1 being sick) Jay and Black Steve say that i am going to be in loss of credit. and i dont even know what that is but i am afraid of it..
The people at school really only care about themselves, they dont care that i am a 17 year old freshman. whatever is in there set life at school is considered "normal" to them. To me, nothing is normal or ordinary and everything/everyone has characteristics that i would love to understand. But to try to find out more about someone is practically imposable when they say they are just average, normal, ordinary, boring, or any other descriptive words that are along thos lines.
These people who are in school, they have already excepted a long time ago, that they are unhappy with school. To change that is something i can not do. I wish i could but the only thing i can do is what i am doing. being happy. having fun. and sharing my happiness with others that need it. My happiness is starting to wear thin, cause it hardly gets returned.
In there heads, they have made school out to be a swamp or a place that is unpleasant and there okay with that because everyone else is in the swamp too.
I never knew how different i was from school-goers until now.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Poem
Wednesday up to today
My health isn't ok
Was lying the best way?
Just to say away?
Even though i was sick
Eager for school i was
Evils inside of me
Evolved more and more
Awoken with a fever
When i stand i am weak
Everything seemed darker
I could hardly speak
My throat is extremely raw
I couldn't even say huzzah
Is this karma catching up to me?
because i really have to pee.. Again
I believe karma only effects people
So who did i effect by not going?
The people who didn't giggle?
I doubt i am that charming
The nurse had to dismiss me
and i hope my friends will miss me
Now i'm home making cups of tea
feeling like a Furry funky grumpy groggy chunky chimpanzee (they fling poop)
I just ate a bowl of soup
now i feel like i am going to puke
I feel like i've been nuked
soon i will have to poop
My health isn't ok
Was lying the best way?
Just to say away?
Even though i was sick
Eager for school i was
Evils inside of me
Evolved more and more
Awoken with a fever
When i stand i am weak
Everything seemed darker
I could hardly speak
My throat is extremely raw
I couldn't even say huzzah
Is this karma catching up to me?
because i really have to pee.. Again
I believe karma only effects people
So who did i effect by not going?
The people who didn't giggle?
I doubt i am that charming
The nurse had to dismiss me
and i hope my friends will miss me
Now i'm home making cups of tea
feeling like a Furry funky grumpy groggy chunky chimpanzee (they fling poop)
I just ate a bowl of soup
now i feel like i am going to puke
I feel like i've been nuked
soon i will have to poop
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Explosive diarrhea
Today is my brother's birthday.
Elliot is going to be 23! and thats a really good number that equals 5
I would love to spend his birthday with him, but school calls!! or not.
I formed a plan. I woke up at 7:30 with the morning light flooding into my room. Blasting an up beat song to actually wake me up, then Nova (my dog) jumps on my bed wagging his tail licking my face and saying in his own way "Yay! its time for Madisun to wake up"
No shower today. Lazy? Nope. I just have a plan and need a little more convincing to make it run smoothly.
I left for school at 8:10 and made sure i had dirty cloths on.
I walk in to class with droopy eyes as if i i had to sneeze consistently, half steps is if my feet were made of rock, and messy, greasy hair like i didn't sleep last night.
Mrs. Rayome was talking to the teacher next door then sees me and says "Oh, Madisun. You don't look so good, is something a matter?"
"Good morning Mrs. Rayome. Yeah, i am not feeling too well today."
"And you came to school anyway?"
The other teacher that she was talking to says "Aw, Madisun helped me out a great deal the other day with the projector overhead. Its a shame your not feeling well."
"After the second time i threw up, i had a feeling that it would pass. And i still think that it is going away."
"Well, here" as she clears the nearest desk to the door "You sit here today and if you ever need to go to the bathroom, just go. You don't need to use a pass."
"Thank you very much" I said coughing heavily as i sat down.
I didn't get called upon once in class to do anything, say answers, read paragraphs, nothing. I even raised my hand to answer questions.
At 9:21 (yeah i was watching the time) I swiftly headed out the door. I saw Rayome look at me but i didn't stop. I chilled in the bathroom for about 5-7 minutes. Then headed back to class. Standing outside the door listening inside, waiting for the right moment to enter. I held my breath for as long as i could, stumbling inside with my hand on the wall and my face red from holding my breath. Rayome hands me a pass to the nurse's office "get better madisun."
Stage one complete! I couldn't go to the nurse unless i had a note from the teacher.
Still in "Sick" mode. I skipped down the empty hallways. I put my game face back on and walked into the office.
Dragging my feet, i make it to the desk and hand her the paper Rayome gave me without saying anything.
"Could you please sign-in right over there then take a seat?"
"Yes Mama.."
Scribbled my name and the time down then slumped down into a chair.
"So, it says here that your having stomach issues. Can you be more specific?"
"This morning after i woke up, i threw up once at 7, then again at 8 and after that i thought i felt better, so i would try and go to school anyway. I also have fiery diarrhea every 10-20 minutes. I believe i caught this from my brother who had the same thing just the other day. I really can not deal with this at school and need to go home to sleep it out."
What i really wanted to say was "I have been throwing up since i woke up and i have explosive diarrhea and when i poo it feels like a am shitting out a road flare. I am afraid my toilet paper is going to ketch on fire!" But if i said that, i believe they would have thought it a joke.
"Well, we do need to confirm and get the 'okay' from your father before i can let you go"
"Please call him on our phone"
"Dad, i just threw up again."
"Everything is fubar?"
"Yeah, here's the nurse"
"Okay, here you go Madisun. Take this to the attendance office to get signed, then you can head home."
"Thank you very much, but where is the nearest bathroom?"
Stage 2 complete!
Once in the attendance office i see Kayla (White Steve's girlfriend) behind the desk. If your a senior you can take that as a class for accounting or something.
she didn't see me come inside, so i snuck up on her like a sick ninja! I scared the bajeebers out of her!
So while i was waiting for my attendance lady, i hear another attendance person on the phone, with someone. She hangs up and says "Theres another one!!" and everyone starts laughing and they put another tally on a white board that the count was at 13. Curiously i ask what it was. "O that, that is for how many fake phone calls we have gotten today from people pretending that they are parents trying to get there 'kids' out of school."
If i wasn't "sick" i would have laughed and made jokes about that with them. But that would be un-appropriate for what i was there for.
She signed it without a word and told me to get better soon.
On my way out Kayla says
"Hey wait! Madisun!"
"Hmm? whats up?"
"So last night, me and Steve broke up"
"That sucks.. I'm sorry"
"Its okay, we are still friends though"
"Thats good, the last girl i dated did ecstasy and made-out with another dude in the same weekend. So i broke up with her and now she hates me because i didn't try hard enough to stay friends with her or something.. We were friends before, but i haven't talked to her since..."
Kayla went off on this rant about how girls can be so stupid sometimes.
Kayla says with a smile "Well, I'm single now"
I said "Awesome"
turned around and left.
Shes cute and i wouldn't mind dating her, but i will not go chasing her. Since she made the first move, then yea, i will hang out with her more. But we'll see what happens then. What ever happens, happens. I'm just here for the ride.
Back out in the parking lot, all the gates are closed. the only way out is past a security guard that you must have a paper stating why you are leaving signed by 3 different people.
I was home by 10:35. Showered and Elliot said that he just woke up. Perfect timing!
Elliot is going to be 23! and thats a really good number that equals 5
I would love to spend his birthday with him, but school calls!! or not.
I formed a plan. I woke up at 7:30 with the morning light flooding into my room. Blasting an up beat song to actually wake me up, then Nova (my dog) jumps on my bed wagging his tail licking my face and saying in his own way "Yay! its time for Madisun to wake up"
No shower today. Lazy? Nope. I just have a plan and need a little more convincing to make it run smoothly.
I left for school at 8:10 and made sure i had dirty cloths on.
I walk in to class with droopy eyes as if i i had to sneeze consistently, half steps is if my feet were made of rock, and messy, greasy hair like i didn't sleep last night.
Mrs. Rayome was talking to the teacher next door then sees me and says "Oh, Madisun. You don't look so good, is something a matter?"
"Good morning Mrs. Rayome. Yeah, i am not feeling too well today."
"And you came to school anyway?"
The other teacher that she was talking to says "Aw, Madisun helped me out a great deal the other day with the projector overhead. Its a shame your not feeling well."
"After the second time i threw up, i had a feeling that it would pass. And i still think that it is going away."
"Well, here" as she clears the nearest desk to the door "You sit here today and if you ever need to go to the bathroom, just go. You don't need to use a pass."
"Thank you very much" I said coughing heavily as i sat down.
I didn't get called upon once in class to do anything, say answers, read paragraphs, nothing. I even raised my hand to answer questions.
At 9:21 (yeah i was watching the time) I swiftly headed out the door. I saw Rayome look at me but i didn't stop. I chilled in the bathroom for about 5-7 minutes. Then headed back to class. Standing outside the door listening inside, waiting for the right moment to enter. I held my breath for as long as i could, stumbling inside with my hand on the wall and my face red from holding my breath. Rayome hands me a pass to the nurse's office "get better madisun."
Stage one complete! I couldn't go to the nurse unless i had a note from the teacher.
Still in "Sick" mode. I skipped down the empty hallways. I put my game face back on and walked into the office.
Dragging my feet, i make it to the desk and hand her the paper Rayome gave me without saying anything.
"Could you please sign-in right over there then take a seat?"
"Yes Mama.."
Scribbled my name and the time down then slumped down into a chair.
"So, it says here that your having stomach issues. Can you be more specific?"
"This morning after i woke up, i threw up once at 7, then again at 8 and after that i thought i felt better, so i would try and go to school anyway. I also have fiery diarrhea every 10-20 minutes. I believe i caught this from my brother who had the same thing just the other day. I really can not deal with this at school and need to go home to sleep it out."
What i really wanted to say was "I have been throwing up since i woke up and i have explosive diarrhea and when i poo it feels like a am shitting out a road flare. I am afraid my toilet paper is going to ketch on fire!" But if i said that, i believe they would have thought it a joke.
"Well, we do need to confirm and get the 'okay' from your father before i can let you go"
"Please call him on our phone"
"Dad, i just threw up again."
"Everything is fubar?"
"Yeah, here's the nurse"
"Okay, here you go Madisun. Take this to the attendance office to get signed, then you can head home."
"Thank you very much, but where is the nearest bathroom?"
Stage 2 complete!
Once in the attendance office i see Kayla (White Steve's girlfriend) behind the desk. If your a senior you can take that as a class for accounting or something.
she didn't see me come inside, so i snuck up on her like a sick ninja! I scared the bajeebers out of her!
So while i was waiting for my attendance lady, i hear another attendance person on the phone, with someone. She hangs up and says "Theres another one!!" and everyone starts laughing and they put another tally on a white board that the count was at 13. Curiously i ask what it was. "O that, that is for how many fake phone calls we have gotten today from people pretending that they are parents trying to get there 'kids' out of school."
If i wasn't "sick" i would have laughed and made jokes about that with them. But that would be un-appropriate for what i was there for.
She signed it without a word and told me to get better soon.
On my way out Kayla says
"Hey wait! Madisun!"
"Hmm? whats up?"
"So last night, me and Steve broke up"
"That sucks.. I'm sorry"
"Its okay, we are still friends though"
"Thats good, the last girl i dated did ecstasy and made-out with another dude in the same weekend. So i broke up with her and now she hates me because i didn't try hard enough to stay friends with her or something.. We were friends before, but i haven't talked to her since..."
Kayla went off on this rant about how girls can be so stupid sometimes.
Kayla says with a smile "Well, I'm single now"
I said "Awesome"
turned around and left.
Shes cute and i wouldn't mind dating her, but i will not go chasing her. Since she made the first move, then yea, i will hang out with her more. But we'll see what happens then. What ever happens, happens. I'm just here for the ride.
Back out in the parking lot, all the gates are closed. the only way out is past a security guard that you must have a paper stating why you are leaving signed by 3 different people.
I was home by 10:35. Showered and Elliot said that he just woke up. Perfect timing!
Monday, February 16, 2009
Monday the 16th
Thats three weeks!!!
My alarm did not go off today. Dad came into my room at 8 saying "you dont have school today?"
No shower, no breakfast, i was way more than half asleep in English. And i should be doing my homework but, to me this blog is more important.
So i still have no idea how to make a power-point and i have one for Ag and English class. O! I need an off the wall funny persuasive topic to talk about and make a interesting power-point about in English. Give me some ideas if you think of something.
English sucked.. i did get to rig the projector up again. Today was presidents day. So finished our talk about Marten Luther King. Jr. then talked about Obama, and Linkin.
We had a sub in algebra. It was the first time i actually didn't like my class. We did a TON of work. on our own. The girl behind me (I think her name is Megan) Helped me through some stuff when the teacher wasn't looking. By this time, i begun to wake up a little more.
I am starting to renotice the things that i have stopped noticing. The first day of school was so bright and sharp and everything seemed memorable. Then i got in some type of rut and i stopped seeing and was only looking at the things i knew. The people, the objects, body language and even looking into peoples feelings and how they got there.
Everything in school is just a process of thoughts. If the way your processing thoughts is positive, then school will be positive. You dont need to make it harder for yourself by thinking negatively.
For this reason, i believe that is way kids in school are robotish. Then they don't even have to make the decision to be positive or negative. Then they take that robotany into there everyday life. and that's when things start to go down shit creek in a boat with a hole in it while you have no paddle.
On my way down the band hall. I chilled with White Steve and his girlfriend that has the hots for me, then headed down the most packed hallway in the whole school. Kristin (Dillon's girlfriend) grabs me and was like "Hey!! Madisun! come here and talk to me." I shook her off
"Nope, i gotta get to the gym. we'll talk later"
When people dont get there way their mind keeps saying "try harder! Harder!!!" the people who do know and accept that they are not going to get there way always seem to be more mature about stuff.
I stopped at the bathroom. walked in there, and saw like 4 people i knew. Heh, I walk straight to the shortest urinal. Its about halfway down the wall from the rest of them. There is only one in the bathroom and this bathroom was big and full of school-goers.
"Yes! i get the midgets pisser!"
as i squat lower so i am closer to the urinal
I never knew it would be so hard to pee and laugh at the same time!
In the hall class room of awesomeness we were told to complete a hunters education pre-test. I busted out my phone and started texting my friend Joe who i knew would know all of the answers. I did quite good myself. That class is always full of laughs that seem echo all the way down the hallways.
I have acquired 2 more tables that i sit at in the lunch room. I'm getting better at names! I ate my whole apple, then wandered around waiting for this school day to end. Today wasn't the greatest of days. Tons of work that some of witch has gone unfinished.
In Ag class, the class started giving there animal power-points. And i took butt tons of notes. i got very drowsy in that class room with the lights out looking at the overhead.
at 4:05 i walked out with Karli, she's cool when she isn't blabbering on about herself.
Out in front of the school, i found that one guy, who said i was the happiest guy he knew. and today he said told me
"You have inspired me to be happy at school"
That made my day. To actually have someone verbally tell me that, it was wonderful.
My alarm did not go off today. Dad came into my room at 8 saying "you dont have school today?"
No shower, no breakfast, i was way more than half asleep in English. And i should be doing my homework but, to me this blog is more important.
So i still have no idea how to make a power-point and i have one for Ag and English class. O! I need an off the wall funny persuasive topic to talk about and make a interesting power-point about in English. Give me some ideas if you think of something.
English sucked.. i did get to rig the projector up again. Today was presidents day. So finished our talk about Marten Luther King. Jr. then talked about Obama, and Linkin.
We had a sub in algebra. It was the first time i actually didn't like my class. We did a TON of work. on our own. The girl behind me (I think her name is Megan) Helped me through some stuff when the teacher wasn't looking. By this time, i begun to wake up a little more.
I am starting to renotice the things that i have stopped noticing. The first day of school was so bright and sharp and everything seemed memorable. Then i got in some type of rut and i stopped seeing and was only looking at the things i knew. The people, the objects, body language and even looking into peoples feelings and how they got there.
Everything in school is just a process of thoughts. If the way your processing thoughts is positive, then school will be positive. You dont need to make it harder for yourself by thinking negatively.
For this reason, i believe that is way kids in school are robotish. Then they don't even have to make the decision to be positive or negative. Then they take that robotany into there everyday life. and that's when things start to go down shit creek in a boat with a hole in it while you have no paddle.
On my way down the band hall. I chilled with White Steve and his girlfriend that has the hots for me, then headed down the most packed hallway in the whole school. Kristin (Dillon's girlfriend) grabs me and was like "Hey!! Madisun! come here and talk to me." I shook her off
"Nope, i gotta get to the gym. we'll talk later"
When people dont get there way their mind keeps saying "try harder! Harder!!!" the people who do know and accept that they are not going to get there way always seem to be more mature about stuff.
I stopped at the bathroom. walked in there, and saw like 4 people i knew. Heh, I walk straight to the shortest urinal. Its about halfway down the wall from the rest of them. There is only one in the bathroom and this bathroom was big and full of school-goers.
"Yes! i get the midgets pisser!"
as i squat lower so i am closer to the urinal
I never knew it would be so hard to pee and laugh at the same time!
In the hall class room of awesomeness we were told to complete a hunters education pre-test. I busted out my phone and started texting my friend Joe who i knew would know all of the answers. I did quite good myself. That class is always full of laughs that seem echo all the way down the hallways.
I have acquired 2 more tables that i sit at in the lunch room. I'm getting better at names! I ate my whole apple, then wandered around waiting for this school day to end. Today wasn't the greatest of days. Tons of work that some of witch has gone unfinished.
In Ag class, the class started giving there animal power-points. And i took butt tons of notes. i got very drowsy in that class room with the lights out looking at the overhead.
at 4:05 i walked out with Karli, she's cool when she isn't blabbering on about herself.
Out in front of the school, i found that one guy, who said i was the happiest guy he knew. and today he said told me
"You have inspired me to be happy at school"
That made my day. To actually have someone verbally tell me that, it was wonderful.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Friday the 13th
That was yesterday, It was quite a busy day and i didn't have much time to write.
It seems every other day, is a day that sleep follows me. Its difficult to wake up and function at school in the mornings. I brought a bag of chocolate morsels to give to people who wanted to know i thought about them for Valentine's day and i was too lazy to go buy a ton of chocolate kisses for everyone.
In English we still have a sub. Mrs. Rayome is going around to different colleges with her son to see witch one will be suitable. The sub, Ms. Provo is a very laid back teacher. While we were in the middle of working on stuff, the teacher in the classroom next door popped her head inside ours asking if anyone knew how to work projectors. Well, seeing as i have one, i was in luck. I walked in to W102 and knew half the people in there, i never knew that they were just a classroom over from me. I rigged that projector up fast then headed back to my class.
Today was Soul Food day. Some type of Black informative day at the school. And if you bought a coupon, you could get out of class first period to go eat fried chicken, mashed potatos and sweet tea. Unfortunately it was to late for me to buy a coupon. Half of our class went but are now behind on the homework. I got assigned a ton of homework to be done my next month. Some crazy stuff that i don't think i am going to do. I have been thinking a lot about all of the homework stuff, and have decided that its a lose lose situation for school-goers. When you dont do it you have the feeling of dread, then later you feel behind and get the guilt trip from the teacher (if they are good teacher and care). For me, when i do do the home work and bring it in, well first i feel like i could be doing soo many other things than working on something silly for English. Then once it gets graded, I think "was that really worth it?" Everyone is different, and that is my opinion from first hand experience. It is also nice for me to know that i can actually do it. Growing up homeschooled you have no idea what your education level is at. It is a big think for me to know that i am somewhat smart in the subjects they are teaching at school (so far) I always thought i was behind, but i always knew i was more knowledgeable in other stuff, like wilderness survival and awareness. Because that is what i grew up doing. If you have never seen the Camp Tonkawa web site (the camp my family runs) its camptonkawatexas.com
In Algebra we are doing some type of book drive, and witch ever 2ed period class gets the most books get a pizza party. There is this one girl who is in both my English and Algebra classes. I helped her carry 2 boxes of books to class. So far we have somewhere around 170 books. Just our class.
I like algebra, its easy and the people are a lot more social. But brady the kid next to me, was in such a down mood. I did what i could to make him smile and lift his mood. He wouldn't tell me what was up.
I am starting to see that when someone has a problem or something bad happened to him, it brings friends closer. When i look back on my life, my friends were the closest when something was wrong in my life. Maybe it makes them feel more important to you or that you need them and sometimes it could make your friends feel like your more like them. Like you have problems also, or your in the same boat.
This might cause a problem for me. I'm not perfect but the problems in my life dont affect me the way they would have if i was younger. Because you can chose whether or not you want things to run your life. Maybe i will test this..
Class went by fast, with no homework. I had it arranged so i can retake a quiz i missed when i went on my cruise since it was "do nothing friday" in outdoor ed. when the bell rang, i went to the other side of the school to tell Coach Odle that i was going to go take my quiz. I chilled over there waiting for him to get there. Once he did i left to go take my test.
Walking around the school while everyone was in class was amazing. I never knew the raging river of the school could be so peaceful. After a wile, i got there. I was enjoying wandering around the empty hallways and looking into classrooms that had windows in the doors. I did really good on the quiz. was there for about a half hour, then headed back to outdoor ed.
On my way back, the lunch bell rang for C lunch, so the hallways were filled. instead of going back to class, i hung around the lunch room looking for anyone i knew. I found a few people but i know way more people in D lunch.
When i made it back to the hallway where my class is, i see a tv set up and everyone sitting around it watching this guy field dress a dear. He was about half way through taking the hide off. Everyone was all grossed out. I sat down and started eating my apple
"EWWWW!!! How can you eat anything while watching this madisun!??!!!"
"Hey, its not that gross. Did you know that human bones and mussels look just like that?"
"how would you know?!"
As the guy on the video is cutting the deers head off with a saw
I say "Wait... You guys dont know anything about me do you... For all you know i could be some sicko that is actually 20 and get pleasure from cutting young people up into little bits and using there rib cages as cloths. None of you people have seen be before. I could be lying about everything. what makes you think you know me?"
Everyone went silent.
then they were like
".... nooo.. "
"Nooo..."
"no that cant be"
"You can be creepy sometimes, but your not THAT creepy..."
Then i bust out laughing so hard i almost cried!!!
Once i laughed most everyone laughed.
now that i look back on that, that really could have gone bad and everyone have second thoughts about me. but i am very glad that it didn't.
After that i shared my chocolate with everyone.
Micky says to me
"Madisun, you are the nicest person i have ever met."
I said "thanks! but how so?"
"Well the 2ed time i ever talked to you, i was having a bad day and you were there trying to make me feel better and i didn't even know you then. I told you about how that day sucked and you said to me 'well at least your not a siamese twin that has 1 body and 2 heads and the other you is gay and is having a hot date tonight and you only have 1 butt hole.' you are the nicest person i know"
Once our lunch bell rang, we all walked to lunch together.
I brought 2 apples today. I already ate one of them and didn't feel like eating another. So i talked Eric into buying one. I sold it to him for a dollar.
I took that dollar, then went to go find a marker. once i tracked one down i flipped the dollar over so the "one" side was facing up then but a big "B" right before the "O" and an "R" after the "N" so it spelled "B-ONE-R"
I showed that dollar to over 3 dozen people! it was awesome. it took some people a long time to actually get it. but once they did they laughed harder than the ones who got it fast.
Every time i meet a girl named Amanda, I call them Amanda Panda!! and it always makes them smile. I only know 2 Amandas.
My forth period class is suppose to meet in the computer lab, B202. I had no idea where this was, so i asked a teacher leaving the lunch room if he could take me there. He said he was heading there anyway and would show me. The end lunch bell didn't ring yet but he didn't care. So i got to leave early.
B202 was upstairs. Since i was there early, i got started on my Ag work. But none of the computers worked for me because i still didn't have my own computer account to access. While i was waiting for the others i finished some bookwork.
The last person to get there was Karli. and surprisingly she came and sat next to me. She was beautiful today. and i told her so. i never noticed it before, but she might like me. She let me use her account to get online, I had to research and write a paper on Anthrax. Thats some nasty stuff. I finished it in about 30 minutes. then just played around on the computer and talked to Karli about all of her friends and family. She is kinda self centered. Then it goes again, i while she was talking about all this bad stuff in her life. I had nothing bad to tell her about mine. I am still not sure what i am going to do about it. but I'll do something.
At 4:05 the bell rang and we split. across the hall from B202 at B203 i see Black Steve and Alissandrea coming out of the classroom. I haven't seen her in a long time. she said she wanted to hang out but i knew she was busy and probably wouldn't get to. Turns out i was right.
I was chillin in the front of the school with a lot of people and this guy that i see every day is like
"Madisun!!! come here! i want you to meet these people!"
I walk over there with a smile on my face and chilled with them for a bit
Then he says
"Dude, your are like the happiest person i know! its always nice to be around you because you always make everyone smile!"
This really made me happy. I know that i am here on this Earth to peoples lives easier and happier. I was extremely glad to hear this from two different people today!!
It seems every other day, is a day that sleep follows me. Its difficult to wake up and function at school in the mornings. I brought a bag of chocolate morsels to give to people who wanted to know i thought about them for Valentine's day and i was too lazy to go buy a ton of chocolate kisses for everyone.
In English we still have a sub. Mrs. Rayome is going around to different colleges with her son to see witch one will be suitable. The sub, Ms. Provo is a very laid back teacher. While we were in the middle of working on stuff, the teacher in the classroom next door popped her head inside ours asking if anyone knew how to work projectors. Well, seeing as i have one, i was in luck. I walked in to W102 and knew half the people in there, i never knew that they were just a classroom over from me. I rigged that projector up fast then headed back to my class.
Today was Soul Food day. Some type of Black informative day at the school. And if you bought a coupon, you could get out of class first period to go eat fried chicken, mashed potatos and sweet tea. Unfortunately it was to late for me to buy a coupon. Half of our class went but are now behind on the homework. I got assigned a ton of homework to be done my next month. Some crazy stuff that i don't think i am going to do. I have been thinking a lot about all of the homework stuff, and have decided that its a lose lose situation for school-goers. When you dont do it you have the feeling of dread, then later you feel behind and get the guilt trip from the teacher (if they are good teacher and care). For me, when i do do the home work and bring it in, well first i feel like i could be doing soo many other things than working on something silly for English. Then once it gets graded, I think "was that really worth it?" Everyone is different, and that is my opinion from first hand experience. It is also nice for me to know that i can actually do it. Growing up homeschooled you have no idea what your education level is at. It is a big think for me to know that i am somewhat smart in the subjects they are teaching at school (so far) I always thought i was behind, but i always knew i was more knowledgeable in other stuff, like wilderness survival and awareness. Because that is what i grew up doing. If you have never seen the Camp Tonkawa web site (the camp my family runs) its camptonkawatexas.com
In Algebra we are doing some type of book drive, and witch ever 2ed period class gets the most books get a pizza party. There is this one girl who is in both my English and Algebra classes. I helped her carry 2 boxes of books to class. So far we have somewhere around 170 books. Just our class.
I like algebra, its easy and the people are a lot more social. But brady the kid next to me, was in such a down mood. I did what i could to make him smile and lift his mood. He wouldn't tell me what was up.
I am starting to see that when someone has a problem or something bad happened to him, it brings friends closer. When i look back on my life, my friends were the closest when something was wrong in my life. Maybe it makes them feel more important to you or that you need them and sometimes it could make your friends feel like your more like them. Like you have problems also, or your in the same boat.
This might cause a problem for me. I'm not perfect but the problems in my life dont affect me the way they would have if i was younger. Because you can chose whether or not you want things to run your life. Maybe i will test this..
Class went by fast, with no homework. I had it arranged so i can retake a quiz i missed when i went on my cruise since it was "do nothing friday" in outdoor ed. when the bell rang, i went to the other side of the school to tell Coach Odle that i was going to go take my quiz. I chilled over there waiting for him to get there. Once he did i left to go take my test.
Walking around the school while everyone was in class was amazing. I never knew the raging river of the school could be so peaceful. After a wile, i got there. I was enjoying wandering around the empty hallways and looking into classrooms that had windows in the doors. I did really good on the quiz. was there for about a half hour, then headed back to outdoor ed.
On my way back, the lunch bell rang for C lunch, so the hallways were filled. instead of going back to class, i hung around the lunch room looking for anyone i knew. I found a few people but i know way more people in D lunch.
When i made it back to the hallway where my class is, i see a tv set up and everyone sitting around it watching this guy field dress a dear. He was about half way through taking the hide off. Everyone was all grossed out. I sat down and started eating my apple
"EWWWW!!! How can you eat anything while watching this madisun!??!!!"
"Hey, its not that gross. Did you know that human bones and mussels look just like that?"
"how would you know?!"
As the guy on the video is cutting the deers head off with a saw
I say "Wait... You guys dont know anything about me do you... For all you know i could be some sicko that is actually 20 and get pleasure from cutting young people up into little bits and using there rib cages as cloths. None of you people have seen be before. I could be lying about everything. what makes you think you know me?"
Everyone went silent.
then they were like
".... nooo.. "
"Nooo..."
"no that cant be"
"You can be creepy sometimes, but your not THAT creepy..."
Then i bust out laughing so hard i almost cried!!!
Once i laughed most everyone laughed.
now that i look back on that, that really could have gone bad and everyone have second thoughts about me. but i am very glad that it didn't.
After that i shared my chocolate with everyone.
Micky says to me
"Madisun, you are the nicest person i have ever met."
I said "thanks! but how so?"
"Well the 2ed time i ever talked to you, i was having a bad day and you were there trying to make me feel better and i didn't even know you then. I told you about how that day sucked and you said to me 'well at least your not a siamese twin that has 1 body and 2 heads and the other you is gay and is having a hot date tonight and you only have 1 butt hole.' you are the nicest person i know"
Once our lunch bell rang, we all walked to lunch together.
I brought 2 apples today. I already ate one of them and didn't feel like eating another. So i talked Eric into buying one. I sold it to him for a dollar.
I took that dollar, then went to go find a marker. once i tracked one down i flipped the dollar over so the "one" side was facing up then but a big "B" right before the "O" and an "R" after the "N" so it spelled "B-ONE-R"
I showed that dollar to over 3 dozen people! it was awesome. it took some people a long time to actually get it. but once they did they laughed harder than the ones who got it fast.
Every time i meet a girl named Amanda, I call them Amanda Panda!! and it always makes them smile. I only know 2 Amandas.
My forth period class is suppose to meet in the computer lab, B202. I had no idea where this was, so i asked a teacher leaving the lunch room if he could take me there. He said he was heading there anyway and would show me. The end lunch bell didn't ring yet but he didn't care. So i got to leave early.
B202 was upstairs. Since i was there early, i got started on my Ag work. But none of the computers worked for me because i still didn't have my own computer account to access. While i was waiting for the others i finished some bookwork.
The last person to get there was Karli. and surprisingly she came and sat next to me. She was beautiful today. and i told her so. i never noticed it before, but she might like me. She let me use her account to get online, I had to research and write a paper on Anthrax. Thats some nasty stuff. I finished it in about 30 minutes. then just played around on the computer and talked to Karli about all of her friends and family. She is kinda self centered. Then it goes again, i while she was talking about all this bad stuff in her life. I had nothing bad to tell her about mine. I am still not sure what i am going to do about it. but I'll do something.
At 4:05 the bell rang and we split. across the hall from B202 at B203 i see Black Steve and Alissandrea coming out of the classroom. I haven't seen her in a long time. she said she wanted to hang out but i knew she was busy and probably wouldn't get to. Turns out i was right.
I was chillin in the front of the school with a lot of people and this guy that i see every day is like
"Madisun!!! come here! i want you to meet these people!"
I walk over there with a smile on my face and chilled with them for a bit
Then he says
"Dude, your are like the happiest person i know! its always nice to be around you because you always make everyone smile!"
This really made me happy. I know that i am here on this Earth to peoples lives easier and happier. I was extremely glad to hear this from two different people today!!
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Week 2 day 4
I didn't get to write yesterday. I was soo tired and grumpy to do anything. so when school was over yesterday, i came home and slept after i went to Chick-Ful-A with Denee, Jenna, Emmily and one of there friends. We got free Chicken sandwiches and fries :)
But once i got home, i crashed.
Yesterday consisted of an awesome morning, instead of trying to go with the flow of the hallway rivers, to be concrete like a bolder and watch as everyone molds around you without question. I tried to find the chess club, but failed. Ate some paper mache with out the paper. More book work in outdoor ed, taking a test in Algebra and bringing my own lunch and some to share.
I am starting to notice when a teacher decides to care or not. When you show interest and try in something, they wont be so hard on you.
I learned how to write and draw on a graphing calculator! That was cool.
Well, Today.
Today was one of those days, a day when everything seemed to be right. When you can see the sun shining even when your trapped in a classroom with no windows and a door you cant reach. I really am learning a lot in school, mostly in English. Can YOU tell i am getting better with my English? I can, and it feels good.
I am starting to understand what people are thinking when i tell them my story, the story of me being a 17 year old freshman. First thought is "What a retard, he got held back that much!" Very Skeptical. Once i tell them how much fun i am having in school, they always have to tell me about something bad they think about school. Sometimes its almost like the person is trying to bring my mood and thoughts about school to an unpleasant place.
When someone comes across something they don't know, see, understand or is unknown to them, subconsciously they either going to be scared of it, change it to something they do know or cast it aside. The ones who do not do this are the interesting ones i am looking for, but there is a huge difference between the ones who understand and the ones who don't care. The ones who just dont give a dam, are the ones who you can not trust. Once the person gets to know me a little, then they get interested in who i am. Most people think they understand me and put me in a category like "That fun guy" or "That Creeper" and thats what they assume me to be. Just seeing so many people everyday makes me think about myself more and more. It would be amazing if people just knew that they didn't have to suffer, to be sad and let things/people bring your emotions down. Its up to YOU to decide how you want to feel about things.
So, my day. I try to never go the same way from class to class. I always find people i know no matter witch way i go. but its starting to take me longer and longer to get to where i need to go.
Algebra was cool, I got my Quizzes back. Since i was gone for a week and took the quiz without studying i only got a 70... But i am going to retake so i have something to do Friday. I am now sitting in front of this girl who i also sat with at the lunch table. I still didn't get her name down. She likes to hear stories, any stories about me. Its nice talking about myself sometimes. Most of the time i am talking about others, because everyone gets joy in talking about them self. Even me.
Me and Jenna walked across the school towards the gyms, i never knew she went there everyday. That will give me someone to walk with :)
In outdoor ed, we dressed out. Then headed to the track and soccer field. We ran the bleachers, up and down. Then ran the track twice.
When we were about to finish, another class came outside to run. And i saw a lot of my other friends in that class. I was running one way around the track, and they were running the other. The first time i saw them about 6 girls yelled "MADISUN!!!" I ran past giggling.
After we finished that, we went into the weight room and indoor soccer building. We got to chose to play soccer or lift weights. I lifted weights with a quite kid that looked about 18. He was a big kid like me. and we worked well together.
Once i was sore and sweaty as hell. we went back to the school for lunch time.
I didn't change back into my jeans and long sleeve shirt.
Me and Micky walked to the lunch room together before the bell rang. It was amazing! the lunch room was completely empty. I sat with him at his table today. Everyone there seemed to be happy and NOT talk about drama, So i stayed and ate my orange and cheeze-its with them. When lunch was almost over i went to see my other friends around the lunch room.
So far. My favorite people in school are Ian, Jenna, Denee, Cody and Micky. There is this other girl that sits at one of the tables in the commons, she has some awesome pants and really long straight hair. shes a cutie.
I ran into Jay right when the bell rang and he walked me to my last class. He doesn't have 4th period since he has a job and is a senior.
Ag class went fast. we still had a sub since yesterday, so all we did was book work. yesterday i papered mached a female turkey. today i painted it. then Shelby got paint on my nose, so i put paint all over her arm. then got in trouble by the sub, I didn't care tho. i wish we could have had a rainbow fight!! haha!
Karli blabbered on as ever. On and on about her family and friends. i wonder if she ever thinks about other people when it doesn't benefit herself. I'll ask her that sometime and see what happens.
Once the bell rang. I ran to my truck and headed to Kroger to meet my mom to buy stuff for dinner. Once i was in the parking lot waiting for her, i fell asleep because i was sooo sore.
Mom found me and we bought stuff for homemade egg-rolls.
But once i got home, i crashed.
Yesterday consisted of an awesome morning, instead of trying to go with the flow of the hallway rivers, to be concrete like a bolder and watch as everyone molds around you without question. I tried to find the chess club, but failed. Ate some paper mache with out the paper. More book work in outdoor ed, taking a test in Algebra and bringing my own lunch and some to share.
I am starting to notice when a teacher decides to care or not. When you show interest and try in something, they wont be so hard on you.
I learned how to write and draw on a graphing calculator! That was cool.
Well, Today.
Today was one of those days, a day when everything seemed to be right. When you can see the sun shining even when your trapped in a classroom with no windows and a door you cant reach. I really am learning a lot in school, mostly in English. Can YOU tell i am getting better with my English? I can, and it feels good.
I am starting to understand what people are thinking when i tell them my story, the story of me being a 17 year old freshman. First thought is "What a retard, he got held back that much!" Very Skeptical. Once i tell them how much fun i am having in school, they always have to tell me about something bad they think about school. Sometimes its almost like the person is trying to bring my mood and thoughts about school to an unpleasant place.
When someone comes across something they don't know, see, understand or is unknown to them, subconsciously they either going to be scared of it, change it to something they do know or cast it aside. The ones who do not do this are the interesting ones i am looking for, but there is a huge difference between the ones who understand and the ones who don't care. The ones who just dont give a dam, are the ones who you can not trust. Once the person gets to know me a little, then they get interested in who i am. Most people think they understand me and put me in a category like "That fun guy" or "That Creeper" and thats what they assume me to be. Just seeing so many people everyday makes me think about myself more and more. It would be amazing if people just knew that they didn't have to suffer, to be sad and let things/people bring your emotions down. Its up to YOU to decide how you want to feel about things.
So, my day. I try to never go the same way from class to class. I always find people i know no matter witch way i go. but its starting to take me longer and longer to get to where i need to go.
Algebra was cool, I got my Quizzes back. Since i was gone for a week and took the quiz without studying i only got a 70... But i am going to retake so i have something to do Friday. I am now sitting in front of this girl who i also sat with at the lunch table. I still didn't get her name down. She likes to hear stories, any stories about me. Its nice talking about myself sometimes. Most of the time i am talking about others, because everyone gets joy in talking about them self. Even me.
Me and Jenna walked across the school towards the gyms, i never knew she went there everyday. That will give me someone to walk with :)
In outdoor ed, we dressed out. Then headed to the track and soccer field. We ran the bleachers, up and down. Then ran the track twice.
When we were about to finish, another class came outside to run. And i saw a lot of my other friends in that class. I was running one way around the track, and they were running the other. The first time i saw them about 6 girls yelled "MADISUN!!!" I ran past giggling.
After we finished that, we went into the weight room and indoor soccer building. We got to chose to play soccer or lift weights. I lifted weights with a quite kid that looked about 18. He was a big kid like me. and we worked well together.
Once i was sore and sweaty as hell. we went back to the school for lunch time.
I didn't change back into my jeans and long sleeve shirt.
Me and Micky walked to the lunch room together before the bell rang. It was amazing! the lunch room was completely empty. I sat with him at his table today. Everyone there seemed to be happy and NOT talk about drama, So i stayed and ate my orange and cheeze-its with them. When lunch was almost over i went to see my other friends around the lunch room.
So far. My favorite people in school are Ian, Jenna, Denee, Cody and Micky. There is this other girl that sits at one of the tables in the commons, she has some awesome pants and really long straight hair. shes a cutie.
I ran into Jay right when the bell rang and he walked me to my last class. He doesn't have 4th period since he has a job and is a senior.
Ag class went fast. we still had a sub since yesterday, so all we did was book work. yesterday i papered mached a female turkey. today i painted it. then Shelby got paint on my nose, so i put paint all over her arm. then got in trouble by the sub, I didn't care tho. i wish we could have had a rainbow fight!! haha!
Karli blabbered on as ever. On and on about her family and friends. i wonder if she ever thinks about other people when it doesn't benefit herself. I'll ask her that sometime and see what happens.
Once the bell rang. I ran to my truck and headed to Kroger to meet my mom to buy stuff for dinner. Once i was in the parking lot waiting for her, i fell asleep because i was sooo sore.
Mom found me and we bought stuff for homemade egg-rolls.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
owt yad owt keew
It was very tough waking up this morning.
Last night i passed out on my bed watching a movie and woke up again at 3am, then i finished typing my blog.
I was out of bed by 7:30 witch is late for going to school. I took a quick shower, grabed an apple and left. Drove to school by myself, parked in the lot and walked toward the cafetera. Chilled in the commons with Jenna and her friends, talking about how i am going to take my seat back in Algerbra.
Engish! Least favorite class for sure.
Olivia was cool though, she sat and talked for a wile.
All class we worked on a TASK pre-test, it was quite easy but still a pain in the ass. I laughed as hard as i have ever had in my first period class today. It was wonderful. Just things i find funny, mostly stupid stuff that isn't funny to others.
On my way to Algerbra i took a different way then i use to and found a lot of people i have met before. Chilled with White Steve then headed to class.
Once in the portable, i saw that my seat was still taken. So i found a new one a row over from that one. There were some girls i haven't met there, so i talked with them most of the class. I took tiny peaces of paper and wrote my phone number on then rolled them all up and started throughing them at people who looked fun. no one has called me yet.
Math is still quite easy, but i am learning. New stuff pops in and out. but most of them time i already know how to do it.
I turned to one of the new girls i met there and said
"Did you know, that if i was blind i'd ask people when i meet them if i could feel there face. But i am not blind"
She laughed
"I'd sure hope you have clean hands"
The jokes went on and on, even when we were working.
Every Tuesday and Thursday are dress-out days in Outdoor ed. and today is Tuesday! I always enjoy going out side. Outdoor Ed is easly my favorite class, Coach Odle is not such a bad guy. Once out on the feild we ran for 10 minutes then did 4 sets of 10 of push ups and sit ups. It was nice to see that i was inshape. Another PE class came out to the soccer field we were on and we played a game. The loser ran 2 laps.
I still had my "Scare tactics" with me, and it worked quite a bit. If i want to be, i can be very intimidating. But we still lost. After we lost Coach said "If you truly believe you put some spirit into your game, you dont have to run 2 laps and you can go change" Even though i knew i gave it my all and others knew, i ran anyway. Me and Micky both ran even though we worked the hardest.
Only 4 out of 30 other people went back to the locker rooms.
Once changed and refreshed, the bell rang for lunch. Cody and i think his name is Spencer wanted me to sit with them. Both of them are cool guys so i sat with them most of the lunch. I did find Morgen for a visit. I ate my apple happily and others game me pizza crust and dry cereal. It was a good lunch.
There is this one guy, i think he is the only guy in school that really truly dislikes me and shows it. I talked to some other people about him and they all said he is gay. And one girl actually felt bad that he treats me that way. It doesn't bother me one bit! hahaha! everytime i walk by that table he give me bad looks and makes sure i cant sit at that table. O well, theres gotta be a hater somewhere!
I sat at a ramdom table today, that didn't go well. totally rejected, they didn't even look at me after i told them who i was. That was a fail on my part i guess.
In my Ag class I talked with Karli and worked on making my turkey out of cardboard and paper mache. Thats all we did in class, easy peazy. When the class was over Garrison, the dude who sits next to me asked me if i wanted a cake. A full Cake I said yes.
I took that cake and walked from the back of the school to the frout and offered cake to anyone who looked at me. That cake got devoured, it was amazing!!! Maked a lot of people happy. I wish i could always give people cake and be know as Madisun The Cake Bringer! And people would rejoice when they saw me skipping down the hallways. That would be sooooo cool.
Stay tuned for tomorrow!! :)
Last night i passed out on my bed watching a movie and woke up again at 3am, then i finished typing my blog.
I was out of bed by 7:30 witch is late for going to school. I took a quick shower, grabed an apple and left. Drove to school by myself, parked in the lot and walked toward the cafetera. Chilled in the commons with Jenna and her friends, talking about how i am going to take my seat back in Algerbra.
Engish! Least favorite class for sure.
Olivia was cool though, she sat and talked for a wile.
All class we worked on a TASK pre-test, it was quite easy but still a pain in the ass. I laughed as hard as i have ever had in my first period class today. It was wonderful. Just things i find funny, mostly stupid stuff that isn't funny to others.
On my way to Algerbra i took a different way then i use to and found a lot of people i have met before. Chilled with White Steve then headed to class.
Once in the portable, i saw that my seat was still taken. So i found a new one a row over from that one. There were some girls i haven't met there, so i talked with them most of the class. I took tiny peaces of paper and wrote my phone number on then rolled them all up and started throughing them at people who looked fun. no one has called me yet.
Math is still quite easy, but i am learning. New stuff pops in and out. but most of them time i already know how to do it.
I turned to one of the new girls i met there and said
"Did you know, that if i was blind i'd ask people when i meet them if i could feel there face. But i am not blind"
She laughed
"I'd sure hope you have clean hands"
The jokes went on and on, even when we were working.
Every Tuesday and Thursday are dress-out days in Outdoor ed. and today is Tuesday! I always enjoy going out side. Outdoor Ed is easly my favorite class, Coach Odle is not such a bad guy. Once out on the feild we ran for 10 minutes then did 4 sets of 10 of push ups and sit ups. It was nice to see that i was inshape. Another PE class came out to the soccer field we were on and we played a game. The loser ran 2 laps.
I still had my "Scare tactics" with me, and it worked quite a bit. If i want to be, i can be very intimidating. But we still lost. After we lost Coach said "If you truly believe you put some spirit into your game, you dont have to run 2 laps and you can go change" Even though i knew i gave it my all and others knew, i ran anyway. Me and Micky both ran even though we worked the hardest.
Only 4 out of 30 other people went back to the locker rooms.
Once changed and refreshed, the bell rang for lunch. Cody and i think his name is Spencer wanted me to sit with them. Both of them are cool guys so i sat with them most of the lunch. I did find Morgen for a visit. I ate my apple happily and others game me pizza crust and dry cereal. It was a good lunch.
There is this one guy, i think he is the only guy in school that really truly dislikes me and shows it. I talked to some other people about him and they all said he is gay. And one girl actually felt bad that he treats me that way. It doesn't bother me one bit! hahaha! everytime i walk by that table he give me bad looks and makes sure i cant sit at that table. O well, theres gotta be a hater somewhere!
I sat at a ramdom table today, that didn't go well. totally rejected, they didn't even look at me after i told them who i was. That was a fail on my part i guess.
In my Ag class I talked with Karli and worked on making my turkey out of cardboard and paper mache. Thats all we did in class, easy peazy. When the class was over Garrison, the dude who sits next to me asked me if i wanted a cake. A full Cake I said yes.
I took that cake and walked from the back of the school to the frout and offered cake to anyone who looked at me. That cake got devoured, it was amazing!!! Maked a lot of people happy. I wish i could always give people cake and be know as Madisun The Cake Bringer! And people would rejoice when they saw me skipping down the hallways. That would be sooooo cool.
Stay tuned for tomorrow!! :)
Week 2 - day 1
Q: Is it possible to truly miss everything about school?
A: In my eyes. No, you will always find something to complain about.
I was quite easy to get back into my morning routine. But today I woke up just a bit earlier so I can mentally prepare my self for my second, first day!
In school for one week, then out another. Maybe I do have it easy.
I drove myself to school at 8:05, I had to take my own car because I was planning on driving to my mom’s after school. Once in the parking lot, I paused to take in my surroundings before I plunged into rivers of the Marcus hallways.
Everyone was in the same place that they went to before i left. All of them half asleep. Most of them, didn't even notice i was there..
It was a real eye opener to me, to see witch ones i actually had an impact on.
A dozen hugs or so later, I headed right to my English first period class. Mrs. Rayome was absent and she had Ms. Provo to sub for her. I sat down just to chill, and she didn't even know i was gone, it was great. I made small talk with her and gave her complements on what ever stuck out at me. That always seem to brighten people up. English was boring. I was still half asleep as well. I didn't even say anything about my unfinished homework. We worked on Vocab packet 4 and it seemed like i didn't miss a thing. During English i was a little on the bummed side. But that passed after i found white Steve in the hallways. We both look a lot alike and Black Steve has informed me that White Steve's girlfriend likes me also. hahahaha, She always seems to look at the funny, and be kinda mean sometimes.
Doesn't it suck, when the people that mean the most to you tend to push you away? Sometimes i find my self doing that to others that i have enormous feelings for. and it sucks.
That's the one thing that hurts me the most, knowing that i have emotionally injured someone close to me.
I get to math, and some black girl is sitting in my seat... i wasn't in the mood to mess with her, so i sat on the other side of the classroom away from my friends in that class. That kind of sucked. There was a math Quiz on everything they learned in the past week i was gone. I told the teacher that she could just give me the quiz if she wanted to. But we settled on me just taking the pre-test and taking the quiz an other day. I was extremely proud of myself. For not doing or leaning any math for a week, and still knowing how to do all of the problems on that dam long pre-test! So, i really wasn't behind at all. I had a pocket full of shells from the beaches of Mexico that i gave to any of my friends that wanted one. Just so they know i was thinking about them. i never noticed how many people i knew.
I guess today was just a day to get back into schedule.
On my way to Outdoor ed, i found Dillon and his girlfriend Kristin. Before i left on the cruise she lost a bet to me about me being a freshman! So, she walked right up to me and handed me $20! I was in shock and tried to refuse. but that didn't work very well. So, I got free lunch again! i have only payed for lunch with my own money like 3 times. crazy.
I walk down the outdoor ed hallway where we all sit, and ninja-ed myself around so no one would see me :)
Sitting around the corner i hear
"Man, i thought Madisun was going to be back today."
And like five people at once say
"I bet hes still in Mexico"
They were the happiest to see me, about 10 of them gave me hugs and i really felt loved. All of them saying they missed my laugh and how they didn't laugh at funny stupid stuff when i was gone.
Well, it is Monday... and every Monday we do book work. i was still on chapter 2, while everyone else was at chapter 7 in the hunters ed course.
Once Coach Odle was out of the room, i said "Who wants free lunch?" and found someone to copy the answers from the other 5 chapters i missed. Then started writing about Hunting Ethics. I was happy to be back by this point. in the other classes i really didn't get to talk to anyone, so it was nice to be with everyone again.
Before the lunch bell rang i ate my apple and everyone started talking about how healthy i am.. then lunch.
Morgen was the first one to find me, Jumping up and down and hugging me tight screaming about how much she missed me! That will never fail to put a smile on my face.
I went table hopping and was talking to everyone who noticed i was back.
I missed all of the stupid little games i played with everyone and making people smile. Lunch went by fast, and i had a blast! Everyday i meet more and more people. Its getting really hard to remember everyone's names. But so far so good!
Heh, watching everyone get up 15 minutes before the bell, its great. I dont know why i find that so fascinating.
I actually had the most makeup work in Ag class.. So i dived head first into all of that. and got a lot of it done. We had to make a card board animal and label all of the body parts then make a power point with 10 different slides of info about that animal. I work the best i could on that. And got about half of it done.
Jess is such a bitch. She has such a bad attitude about everything.. god.
Karli, she'll blabber on and on and on about her friends and her family and everything. but its cool, i get someone to talk to in that class that likes to talk so i dont have to fuel the conversation all the time.
Class went by quick. and i was off.
Went straight to my truck and took off to my moms for dinner.
It was nice seeing her, it has been a week or so. while i was up there i got some of my homework done. but not all of it. i just got back and started writing. Its been a long day. its time to sleep.
A: In my eyes. No, you will always find something to complain about.
I was quite easy to get back into my morning routine. But today I woke up just a bit earlier so I can mentally prepare my self for my second, first day!
In school for one week, then out another. Maybe I do have it easy.
I drove myself to school at 8:05, I had to take my own car because I was planning on driving to my mom’s after school. Once in the parking lot, I paused to take in my surroundings before I plunged into rivers of the Marcus hallways.
Everyone was in the same place that they went to before i left. All of them half asleep. Most of them, didn't even notice i was there..
It was a real eye opener to me, to see witch ones i actually had an impact on.
A dozen hugs or so later, I headed right to my English first period class. Mrs. Rayome was absent and she had Ms. Provo to sub for her. I sat down just to chill, and she didn't even know i was gone, it was great. I made small talk with her and gave her complements on what ever stuck out at me. That always seem to brighten people up. English was boring. I was still half asleep as well. I didn't even say anything about my unfinished homework. We worked on Vocab packet 4 and it seemed like i didn't miss a thing. During English i was a little on the bummed side. But that passed after i found white Steve in the hallways. We both look a lot alike and Black Steve has informed me that White Steve's girlfriend likes me also. hahahaha, She always seems to look at the funny, and be kinda mean sometimes.
Doesn't it suck, when the people that mean the most to you tend to push you away? Sometimes i find my self doing that to others that i have enormous feelings for. and it sucks.
That's the one thing that hurts me the most, knowing that i have emotionally injured someone close to me.
I get to math, and some black girl is sitting in my seat... i wasn't in the mood to mess with her, so i sat on the other side of the classroom away from my friends in that class. That kind of sucked. There was a math Quiz on everything they learned in the past week i was gone. I told the teacher that she could just give me the quiz if she wanted to. But we settled on me just taking the pre-test and taking the quiz an other day. I was extremely proud of myself. For not doing or leaning any math for a week, and still knowing how to do all of the problems on that dam long pre-test! So, i really wasn't behind at all. I had a pocket full of shells from the beaches of Mexico that i gave to any of my friends that wanted one. Just so they know i was thinking about them. i never noticed how many people i knew.
I guess today was just a day to get back into schedule.
On my way to Outdoor ed, i found Dillon and his girlfriend Kristin. Before i left on the cruise she lost a bet to me about me being a freshman! So, she walked right up to me and handed me $20! I was in shock and tried to refuse. but that didn't work very well. So, I got free lunch again! i have only payed for lunch with my own money like 3 times. crazy.
I walk down the outdoor ed hallway where we all sit, and ninja-ed myself around so no one would see me :)
Sitting around the corner i hear
"Man, i thought Madisun was going to be back today."
And like five people at once say
"I bet hes still in Mexico"
They were the happiest to see me, about 10 of them gave me hugs and i really felt loved. All of them saying they missed my laugh and how they didn't laugh at funny stupid stuff when i was gone.
Well, it is Monday... and every Monday we do book work. i was still on chapter 2, while everyone else was at chapter 7 in the hunters ed course.
Once Coach Odle was out of the room, i said "Who wants free lunch?" and found someone to copy the answers from the other 5 chapters i missed. Then started writing about Hunting Ethics. I was happy to be back by this point. in the other classes i really didn't get to talk to anyone, so it was nice to be with everyone again.
Before the lunch bell rang i ate my apple and everyone started talking about how healthy i am.. then lunch.
Morgen was the first one to find me, Jumping up and down and hugging me tight screaming about how much she missed me! That will never fail to put a smile on my face.
I went table hopping and was talking to everyone who noticed i was back.
I missed all of the stupid little games i played with everyone and making people smile. Lunch went by fast, and i had a blast! Everyday i meet more and more people. Its getting really hard to remember everyone's names. But so far so good!
Heh, watching everyone get up 15 minutes before the bell, its great. I dont know why i find that so fascinating.
I actually had the most makeup work in Ag class.. So i dived head first into all of that. and got a lot of it done. We had to make a card board animal and label all of the body parts then make a power point with 10 different slides of info about that animal. I work the best i could on that. And got about half of it done.
Jess is such a bitch. She has such a bad attitude about everything.. god.
Karli, she'll blabber on and on and on about her friends and her family and everything. but its cool, i get someone to talk to in that class that likes to talk so i dont have to fuel the conversation all the time.
Class went by quick. and i was off.
Went straight to my truck and took off to my moms for dinner.
It was nice seeing her, it has been a week or so. while i was up there i got some of my homework done. but not all of it. i just got back and started writing. Its been a long day. its time to sleep.
Monday, February 9, 2009
Cruise
Man, I never knew that I would ever get up earlier then I do for school… I had my alarm set for 5:45 so we could make it to Galveston for our cruise. When I say our, there was Dad, Elliot, Caitie, Austin, Rachel Joe and me. We drove in 2 cars, my little truck and my dads Audi. Me Joe and Caitie were in my truck rockin out while the rest sat quietly in my dad’s car. It was a five hour drive and a two hour wait in line to get on the ship. Galveston looked horrible.. Imagine a zombie infestation going through the city, then being cleared out. Most all of the buildings had blown out windows and there was debris everywhere. Talk about creepy. I’ve watched too many zombie movies.
The Ship was nice though :)
We were sailing on the Carnival Ecstasy. It was a nice ship, I liked it better then the last cruise ship I was on, but I am not picky.
Throughout the week, (I was gone Monday-Friday) I had a blast. There weren’t many other kids on the ship around my age. But that didn’t bother me because I had my brothers and Joe to chill with. The other teens around my age that were on that ship, I met and befriended. There were three girls named Kasey, Kayce and Katie. Whenever I saw them I’d call them the KKK. They were cute but immature and there parents did not want them hanging out with me. Maybe it was because I looked and passed on the ship as a 19 year old :)
I played game after game of chess with everyone. It was great; I am getting a lot better. My dad can’t beat me anymore. I even did better them him in the casino!
Every time I found my dad sleeping, I would bust out my camera and video waking him up. I have about 5 videos of him sleeping all over the ship. Speaking of sleeping, I woke up early every day. It was actually nice getting to see the sunrise, which only happened once though. The dark blue open water with white capping waves as far as the normal eye can see was so beautiful. That is the one thing I looked forward to most on the ship.
For being on a cruise, I ate very healthy. I didn’t order any type of red meat on the ship at dinner time. And the fruit was wonderful on the ship also.
I did bring the homework I had from English class, and every time I started to miss school and the cool friends I have made, I would take it out look at it and start laughing really hard saying “Hahahaha!! All my friends still have to do this stuff right now in school!!” that always made me feel better. I still haven’t finished all of it and I don’t think I will.
All around, I had a extremely memorable time and I cant wait to do it again.
The Ship was nice though :)
We were sailing on the Carnival Ecstasy. It was a nice ship, I liked it better then the last cruise ship I was on, but I am not picky.
Throughout the week, (I was gone Monday-Friday) I had a blast. There weren’t many other kids on the ship around my age. But that didn’t bother me because I had my brothers and Joe to chill with. The other teens around my age that were on that ship, I met and befriended. There were three girls named Kasey, Kayce and Katie. Whenever I saw them I’d call them the KKK. They were cute but immature and there parents did not want them hanging out with me. Maybe it was because I looked and passed on the ship as a 19 year old :)
I played game after game of chess with everyone. It was great; I am getting a lot better. My dad can’t beat me anymore. I even did better them him in the casino!
Every time I found my dad sleeping, I would bust out my camera and video waking him up. I have about 5 videos of him sleeping all over the ship. Speaking of sleeping, I woke up early every day. It was actually nice getting to see the sunrise, which only happened once though. The dark blue open water with white capping waves as far as the normal eye can see was so beautiful. That is the one thing I looked forward to most on the ship.
For being on a cruise, I ate very healthy. I didn’t order any type of red meat on the ship at dinner time. And the fruit was wonderful on the ship also.
I did bring the homework I had from English class, and every time I started to miss school and the cool friends I have made, I would take it out look at it and start laughing really hard saying “Hahahaha!! All my friends still have to do this stuff right now in school!!” that always made me feel better. I still haven’t finished all of it and I don’t think I will.
All around, I had a extremely memorable time and I cant wait to do it again.
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