I have been away from school for being sick for a full week now. Its Wednesday and i feel a lot better than before. It has been a very unpleasant week.

I didn't hear from my school friends much, that was kind of disappointing. I really could have gone for some "get well soon's!!" from anyone.

For the past week i have been thinking about my life. About what i am doing, what i want to do in the long run and how i am going about doing that. Right now, if i were to go to collage. I would want to major in sociology and minor in music. There is no way i would want to spend 4 years at highschool to get a highschool diploma. I am only here for the social experience. Along the way, i am learning a little here and there about Math or English. I am still planning on getting my GED and going from there, so why am i starting to feel stressed out from school? Is it because i have been gone for 2 weeks now? (1 week for the cruise, 1 being sick) Jay and Black Steve say that i am going to be in loss of credit. and i dont even know what that is but i am afraid of it..
The people at school really only care about themselves, they dont care that i am a 17 year old freshman. whatever is in there set life at school is considered "normal" to them. To me, nothing is normal or ordinary and everything/everyone has characteristics that i would love to understand. But to try to find out more about someone is practically imposable when they say they are just average, normal, ordinary, boring, or any other descriptive words that are along thos lines.
These people who are in school, they have already excepted a long time ago, that they are unhappy with school. To change that is something i can not do. I wish i could but the only thing i can do is what i am doing. being happy. having fun. and sharing my happiness with others that need it. My happiness is starting to wear thin, cause it hardly gets returned.
In there heads, they have made school out to be a swamp or a place that is unpleasant and there okay with that because everyone else is in the swamp too.
I never knew how different i was from school-goers until now.