back to school

When my alarm woke me up, I would have loved to have just slept hours past the time i had to get to school. But I made it there just the same…
I felt trapped, confined, bound to this place that is starting to suck me in. were everyone doesn’t know it but they are even restricted in there thoughts. I just wanted to run outside and be free!
Today was not a good day for me. It took me most of the day to figure out that I want to be here, that I am free to do as I please (with consequences). Math did not make my day any better. After being gone for another week, and still not doing any make-up homework, I had no idea what was going on in class. Nobody around me was willing to help ether; they were having a hard time also. Still on the sick side, I sat there drinking all of my water waiting for class to be over. When it did end, I asked Mrs. Tumelty if I could come tomorrow morning so she can help me with what I missed. She agreed.
Once the bell rings, everyone rushes out of the classroom and into the river. So since I stopped to talk to the teacher, everyone was already long gone. I walked alone to 3rd period.
In outdoor ed, I have made more friends than any other class I have. But these friends, they’re not like my homeschool friends. They aren’t close, and I still feel distant from them when they are right in front of me. All of the friends I have made are like this. When I am home I feel like I have lost contact with my homeschooled friends and now these new friends I have are fake. Its not a good feeling.
In class, we went outside to shoot archery. Well at Camp Tonkawa, I teach archery to kids of all ages. Seeing an actual teacher teach archery and suck at it made me feel awesome about my ability talk to people and teach them what I need to.
We headed back inside right before the lunch bell rang.

My dad and one of my old friends named Michael Ball came to bring me lunch. I sat at an empty table with them. I didn’t feel like introducing them to everyone I knew but it was nice to see them see things the way I did. They freaked just like I do when everyone gets up 10 minutes before the bell just like I did.

I said my goodbyes to Michael and my dad then before the bell rang and headed on outside to the Ag barn. I made it there before the lunch bell rang without even thinking about it. Mrs. Welch actually got mad at me. Said that I was to stay in the lunch room until I was suppose to leave. This made me very angry for some reason. Why “must” I stay there? Is that too much free thinking for there liking?
For that hour and forty-five minutes we spent it doing book work over everything we were learning about animals. I hate working out of that book.
Karli was extremely upset. She didn’t even say one thing in class, very unlike her. I did everything I could just to see her smile. And I got one!
When I see someone I know sad, I am driven to make that person laugh or smile. It always makes me feel wonderful.

Right when class was over, I headed were someone I know said that chess club meets there. There was only 3 kids and a teacher there. But at least there was a chess board set up! Lora was there, she is the girl from Germany that plays tennis. I sat, talked and play chess with them for about an hour. Tonto (Austin that lives down the street) came to talk to people in the chess club and I hitched a ride home with him. He hung out with me and helped me understand my math! So now I am up to date with all that… thank god.