Monday, March 9th

Yesterday was the time change, Day light savings time is killer in the spring.
But it was nice waking up and it was still dark.

Over the past few days i have had a lot of homework. And i actually did it. Working on 3 different power points not knowing how was a great experience.
Last Friday, i presented a power point in outdoor ed on the redear sunfish. I was the only person that knew how to speak, present and teach people anything. What are these kids learning in school? No people skills at all? Most everyone there always has someone to say something bad about. Are their minds always full of bad thoughts and sex? Why haven't i had a deep conversation with anyone there yet?
People will say in a heart beat that you are their friend. but outside of the cafeteria, classroom, hallways, you never hear from them. All everyone is drawn too, is the feeling that they are important and you are willing to listen to their story with interest.

Today was great as always. i was in English class by 8:20 because i am still taking makeup tests. I have learned that if you make the teacher happy, its a lot easier to bring in homework two days later. I practically sleep through class, i am so tired. Maybe that is the reason why i struggle so much.
We have started reading the Odyssey and studying Greek mythology. It is very interesting. Things always seem easier to pay attention when they catch your eye.
while i was sitting there in English, I get a note from the main office.
"Where is you registration? it was due February 9th, today is March 9th. I'M WAITING. Mrs. Braswell. Mr Shafferman will begin assigning Wednesday night and/or a saturday school to all stuents who do not return their registrations by 4:00pm today."
What the hell... Seriously.. I was going to get punished for not doing anything?!? Kids lives are lived off of fear.. Fear of getting punished. and in school, you can get punished for anything they want you to do/not do. How do you train a dog? To be the best dog a dog can be? Do you train a dog out of negativeness? To be afraid of you? No, you don't. If you start teaching your child to be afraid, he will be afraid of you. when you are scared of someone, you want to get away from them.
where is the positive reinforcement?

In algebra, there was a pop quiz. It was very easy.
When i finished the quiz i got up and asked if i could go take care of my registration. After i got the okay and a teachers note saying i can leave, i headed down to the front office. i needed to get a teacher approval to take wrestling and theater tech. i only found Mr. Woodstock (haha! he is the theater tech teacher) but i didn't find the wrestling coach. i just wandered around the school for the rest of the time. It is really cool to just walk around and look in all of the little windows in the doors of the classrooms. I felt a little freedom but once the bell rang and the halls flooded with people, i headed off to outdoor ed. others were still finishing up presenting their fish power points. Board, i sat there in the dimly lit room on the verge of sleep. Once everyone finished, we were to meet up with another class that the teacher was out sick today. basically we went out side and walked the track (i walked it bare footed) and played wall ball. I didn't even see Coach Odle. I started thinking how awesome it would be to be able to do handstand pushups.. Then i started thinking. "well, i cant even do a handstand."
"You gotta start somewhere!"
So i went out into the empty soccer field and stood there with my hands in the air
I stood for a long time. thinking about if it would hurt to fall over.
"I cant do something if i am afraid of it.. thats just not possible.."
So i made up my mind to fall a few times to get the feel of it so i wont be scared anymore. I guess it looked kind of funny because a few kids came over to watch me fall on my back some more. i must of fallen on purpose 15ish times. i am getting much better now! I can stand on my hands for about 4 seconds now!!
Heh, things i learn in school.
But i do know that i will probably use this new skill more than other things i am/will learn in school! :)

Elliot and Caitie said that they would be coming to visit me during lunch! I was excited, I walked to the lunch room early and put some chairs aside at the crazy table to give them the full experience of what my day is like. The lunchroom fills up as i am scanning through everyone looking for them.
I check my phone and i had a message from Elliot saying "They wont let us in can you eat out front"
There is guards guarding the main exits from the cafeteria.
Confidently i walk straight passed one of them. He Just watched me pass by him without a word. Ninja-ing my way past people by heading into bathrooms and random hallways i make it to the front. and they were waiting for me. I didn't want to eat right in the front encase someone saw us and said something. so we went and sat in the grass. god, that chicken sandwich was amazing. I was very thankful they brought it to me. One of the teacher people that knows me walks up.
"Hello, well i know you are one of our students here but i don't know about you two.."
Looking him straight in the eyes with a smile "Your right sir, this is my brother and he wanted to come visit me for lunch, i have D lunch. In the main office they told him that only my parents could come visit me and he wanted to see me."

"Well, it is a nice day for a picnic so i wont say anything, but you really need a visitors pass if your going to do this again."

"Thank you very much" I said with a smile.

Once he was gone, I asked Elliot and Caitie if they wanted to see the school. Heh, i snuck them in, in the side door by the gyms and walked around. Showed them where i sit in the hallways during 3rd period. Then we walked to the Cafeteria. I introduced them to a few people i knew and a few i didn't. It seemed like the APs and teachers were closing in on us. Everywhere we turned someone was there. We kept moving untill the bell rang. Once they were gone, people asked me if he was my dad or something! hahaha!! it was great.

In Ag, we had a Sub. She was this nice lady with a heavy Yugoslavian accent. I told her all about my adventures with school. It is easy for me to get along with adults.
Karli is the same everyday. her mood never seems to change from her normal self centered self. But she is my friend just the same. A school friend who i never talk to or see outside of school. We went to the computer lab to finish up our presentations on marketing. Mine is really awesome, i actually had fun making it.

Once the bell rang at 4:05 i went to go meet up with Allesandra. We had plans drive up north to my mama's house. and so we did. It was nice to see her again. she is not like other school people, she will listen to stories i tell with interest. Unlike others.